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Tuesday, September 30, 2003

sad today. tmr's the sec 4 picnic at botanics. donghwa celebrating lynne n yj b'day at there. and im not gonna be there. not gonna be there to celebrate with them. not gonna be there to be with them. actually, i realise that theres alot of stuff im not gonna do with them. too many.

Shadows stretching longer than night
Night stretching longer than day
I no longer see the light
Not with my regret blinding me
The pain no one knows
The hurt no one knows
My heart bleeds from the wounds
Wounds I inflicted upon myself
What's the use of caring
When no one does
What's the use of loving
When no one does
A wall barricading me
Hiding my hurt, regret, pain

The shrill scream of the wind beckoned me
The sweet whispers of the devil beckoned me
Standing by the cliff
Looking at infinity
I'm never going to share their joy
I'm never going to share their pain
I'm never going to be beside them
What is the point
What is the point
Nothing changes
Time had stopped
As a sardonic smile spread
The cry of the vultures echoed.

Rei bboyed at 21:24

Monday, September 29, 2003

today's plaster was red. i wonder when is it going to be orange.

today school no morning assembly. they wanted us to fill up this form about school culture blabla. didnt dare to say anything bad coz i rmb last year i wrote about FnN... teo chor cheng actually threatened to let mrs lee see the paper.. wtf. was so angry. cheap. so i just wrote everything agree la. then free response. ask us about what policies or events the school has that i want to continue. course i wrote there aaw, crez day n crez awards.. hahahaha~ coz all those events i can participate! hahhahahahah~ then ask us about cca.. i told them to form a dance club (unlike the chn n modern dance one la) and a martial arts cca.. that'll be so cool. i'll be the first to join both. hahahahaha~ wrote alot of stupid stuff about dance.. im like so friggin enthu. i love dance! immediately after my art paper, im gonna call the dance studio. i dont care! im starting lessons immediately!!!! wee! can't wait!

then alicia came to me to ask me to help her translate this korean song into konglish.. haha~ i nearly wanted to translate the whole album for her but she didnt need it.. i guess? hahhaa~ went out and happily, i saw myao! she was in a skirt! omg! was like so amazed. immediately called hanjin out and she happily went mad. hahaha~ took a pic with myao anyways.. everyone just looked so funny!! kyunghee looked like a cottage girl.. vie no comments.. haha~ but myao n tobikun are the weirdest! hahhahahahaha! so funny.. lilynne look hot though.. wee~!

then i was rushing through my art.. started going mad during chn.. think its because of too much art.. started dancing to jtl enter the dragon.. my own anyhow choreography one la... then happily i started dancing to myself and sms saw me.. then she yelled at me so loudly what are you doing lor.. nnl.. then fionne n tinwai sitting in front of me started requesting shinhwa dances. so i danced the lame wedding dance part which i know.. the one where dunno who started tehing.. felt so stupid doing that.. then did the eusha one too.. fionne n tinwai were laughing like mad cows.. haha~ then sms keep sayng i make alot of noise when im only dancing.. nnl.. then in the end force fionne n tinwai to sit another place.. who cares abt her.. i just continued dancing anyway.. bleh

then during physics, after one period, tan tze yong dont wanna teach anymore... so i went to s3 to play.. hahahhaha~ acted with vie the Gaymond show.. hahahhahahaha~ will redo.. ahahah~ tobikun say its not nice.. hahahhaa~ damn fun la.. anyways, went to yoshi after art.. went to LJ to buy chocolate pie.. then yj, vie n kyunghee started traumatizing me.. nnl! and yj says i have a u-shaped face! erbx. nnl.. hahhahhaha~ really nnl! then they go n say i look like myao's cat seat! nnl! hahahhahaha~

ps: me not gg for ladies week next year..

Rei bboyed at 22:09

Sunday, September 28, 2003

A Pisces constellation with a star out of place
A piece of jigsaw fitting to nowhere
A crow among swans
I tried to dim my shine
I tried to fit in
I tried to colour myself
I tried my best
Nothing works
Nothing ever does.
The ghost of my past keeps haunting me
The skeletons in my closet keeps reviving
What am I to do but to keep fighting
But I tire
I tire from the fights I've been fighting for a long time

Lying on beach
On the hard sand
The sun beating upon me
The waves crashing against me
Wash me away
Far far away
Let me die in the ocean
Let me die under the open sky
I have nothing to hide
Im clean.
Im alone.
Forever

Rei bboyed at 21:33

Saturday, September 27, 2003

Today eng finals.. wanted to stay up last night to read up the format of functional writing one.. but forgot to. then woke up same time and asked my dad to send me to school coz i needed to pass him my art file. like i wanna carry something so huge and walked ard town right.. was so angry at my pimple. then i couldnt take it anymore. i put my white cream and just slabbed it on the pimple.. i think white looks nicer than red anyway..

rushed into class to see tan tze yong already there.. was so shocked.. hahaha~ passed my parents my art file b4 running back to sit the test.. thought it was ok.. i did the "Hope" topic.. i wrote abt a wife waiting for her husband to come back coz he was enlisted for war.. yea.. dunno la huh.. then functional writing supposed to write to this editor.. wrote the editor name lee hyori.. hahaha~ the last functional writing i put steve jung.. hahhaha! ok.. ya.. then during the break i happily went to do my art.. think its looking great! yay! then eng compre was ok la.. didnt know the first 2 qns.. just anyhow guess.. then dunno why my mind wandered off during summary.. maybe coz i had lotsa time left.. i started thinking abt the vids kyunghee sent me. got so excited!! ahahha~ i wanted to jump up and just anyhow dance but cannot!!! so i had to make to with moving up n down on my chair n flailing my arms ard.. haha~ pple thought that i thought the paper to easy? siao la! hahahahaha~ then had lotsa time left... i dunno why leh! i keep feeling like i left out something.. like an extra compre or what. anyways, wrote a letter for g3 and pasted it at the back.. i thanked them for being so nice to me even though i sorta feel like an outcast.. they even included me in 2 cliques? haha~ thanks arh!

stayed back to wait for kyunghee... played with hanjin n hari the scissors paper stone game.. hahaha~ damn fun! hari n hanjin's reaction all damn slow one! hahahhaha~ then hari mentioned that all people born on 15 and 16 reaction will be slow.. n happily hari born on 16. hanjin 15. hahhahahha~

went with kyunghee to far east to meet vie n yj b4 gg to kpop heaven. bought the s album.. now only left 2 items reserved.. but its 20!!!!!! argh... no more money liao lor...

then went to ssc to play pool.. met luying.. haha~ she like nv change? ahhahaa~ except maybe her hairstyle.. hahaha~ got lectured by vie n yj.. felt really.. i dunno la.. i dunno how to feel also.. anyways, won a game against vie n yj with kyunghee.. so happy! haha~ im officially known as the tribe member.. hahahaa~ damn fun.. then played on vie one on one.. she won me.. argh!! so sad.. she pool princess la she.. haix.. haha~ then had to go home.. so sad! time flies when you're having fun...

Rei bboyed at 23:13

Friday, September 26, 2003

ss presentation today.. was so nervous.. i was rushing through the 2nd script during amaths.. then erffa was like asking me to go to sec 2 class to borrow jiawen's stuff from this girl.. im like erbx. dowan to go.. hello? walk all the way there and some more sec 2? and i had my script to do?! met josef tan.. asked him why he had to tell so many people about me getting irritated when people dont close the door and he happily come tell me that he was just telling another class about my that irritatedness when people dont close the door... anyways, i managed to finish my script and had enuf time to try out whether huiwen's suit will look nice with singlet beneath or erffa's long-sleeved shirt.. obviously the long-sleeved one nicer right..

during ss was still rushing through the script.. need to rewrite so that everyone will know who's talking and who's not. Didnt really listen to the presentations. looks like i'll have to run through it myself. then it was our turn.. was so damn nervous. luckily it went well la huh.. got people laugh.. at least shows that it is interesting enough for people to pay attn to.. then it was the asking qns time. ankita managed to be the first one who shot up her hand first.. so i was thinking of giving her the chocolate plus the sweet... ended up giving them 7 chocs. hahaha~ oops.. haha~ end up heiman, erffa n wati no choc to eat.. haha~ oops.

After the presentation, it was recess liao.. then josef n gary tan was still talking mah.. then jiawen called me behind.. she told me that im in the bloody gang. i was like huh? really arh? then andrea gave me the blue plaster and they were asking me what no. i want.. so i said 13. haha~ but there was no 13.. can only choose from 1-8.. so i chose 3 lor. haha~ then tinwai was like hey! thats my no.! then jiawen insisted that i take 3 then tinwai take 4.. haha~ i think they are damn cute la huh.. haha~ then that josef tan come tell me that he really think imma funny girl.. erbx. dunno what he mean also la huh. the humorous one or the weird meaning.. then bloody gang asked me to go canteen with them.. haha~ so nice of them.. but i couldnt go coz im saving money for shinhwa.

then after recess, i went s3 with erffa to do my art. listened to shinhwa and everything n happily did my art.. managed to sorta finish coloring one of my layout.. left only abit more.. yay! went back to class n guess what? bloody gang donated $2 to my shinhwa fund! hahaha~ im damn touched lor.. even though $2 to some people like not so much money but its the thought that counts lor.. i would be damn happy even if they gave me 10 cents.. thanks arh, bloody gang!!!!

went to kpop heaven after sch... bought so many things.. i utterly excited here lor.. yay! hahahahaha~ man.. i was utterly happy inside the shop.. then arh, christina so nice! she gave me a JTL poster for free!!! ahahhahahaa~ so nice right? coz she say i whole buy stuff from her so she give me free also can.. haha~ so happy la! hahaha~ and im so excited.. i really hope something can faster come.. haiyar! why is it so far away!!!!

Rei bboyed at 17:58

Thursday, September 25, 2003

was damn excited today.. hahagang was gg to have their ss presentation today and they brought a hanbok.. was so happy when i saw the hanbok that i started jumping ard like mad.. hahahahhaha~ then i tried it on! haha~ after sally finished her presentation and everything la.. i went to try lor.. i felt like a pregnant woman.. but it feels good! hahahahaha~ pearlynn took a pic of me tho.. i think i'll look sucky in it.. hahaha~ yay! hanbok jjang! haha~ then went off to ps to meet up lynne, tong, ws, yj, che-i n kyunghee. splurged on a 3 bucks ice cream.. argh! im like trying to save as much money as possible and here i am buying ice cream?!?! mad la me.. and josef tan really suck leh. he go n tell ws that im afraid of slamming the door or leaving the open? hello? i only told him that i hate people not closing the door coz it irritates me to see the door open when the aircon is running.. ttz all. he came out with a totally diff. story.. utterly nnl. cheap... but he still nice la. ahhahhahaha~ im damn happy.. finally che-i n kyunghee got their blogs.. and i saw kyunghee today! hahahha~ like long time nv see her i feel so happy.. even wanted to go home with her but her bus like nv stop anywhere near my hse.. hahaha~.. then tmr is my ss presentation.. its like totally screwed. i havent even do my script yet. so clever. i can just go n die. i hope huiwen's dad's suit can fit me.. it better do.

ps PROJECT S OUT ON SATURDAY!!! PLEASE GO GET IT!!! SUPPORT 'S'!!! BUY ORIGINAL!!! THEY ONLY EARN 3 CENTS!!! ITS AT KPOP HEAVEN!!! AND BUY EVERYTHING THERE EXCEPT FOR BOA STUFF. she just suck la huh. anyway, no one buys her stuff there so im like damn happy. if you go there, you'll realise that there are lotsa boa's stuff.. not b'coz she popular, but b'coz few buy her stuff. muahahaha.

Rei bboyed at 19:54

Wednesday, September 24, 2003

sianx. i hate wednesday. all the stupid subjects are all on wednesday. chem n phy together side by side. yucks. oh wait.. only phy sucks. yea.. im supposed to work hard for chem coz leow-quah treats me nice. but i really cannot understand a single thing la.. WAEYO!??!??!??!? its so frustrating.. cannot take it. i tried listening attentively but i really dont get a single thing. phy i couldnt be bothered at all. i slept through it. whatever. then this morning when share-a-thought finished.. the classes were slowly dispersing.. susan walked past me and asked for the art girls. i hid behind candice's back and prayed she didnt notice me.. heng she didnt.. quickly ran away the moment she was not looking.. turned out she only wanted to pass us our exam paper. really shit man the paper.. none of the questions are nice to do.. cham. went to the canteen during amaths free period. halfway through, saw susan tan walking with lester. hid under the table. tan tze yong had to walk by and gave us this funny expression. i couldnt take it anymore.. i mean, i couldnt possibly hide there till they finish their lunch right? somemore they were happily chatting away.. so i ran to s3. met myao there.. managed to finish my chn compo there too b4 myao started asking me whether the class is smelly and how to make it smell nicer. then she started complaining class very messy. i totally agree. utter mess lor.. papers, books, shirts, shoes, dust, chairs and desks all over the place. i opened all the windows and doors before cleaning up the class with myao. managed to clean up half of the class b4 i had to go off for lit. so now only like half of the class is neat n clean. haha~ damn funny man.. then after lit myao came and find me to go ssc together. went there and played pool... im getting better at it now i guess. miss kyunghee tho.. like long time nv see her.. hahhaa~ and i really think the 2 pool princess suck when they play pool!! hahahhahaha~ that vie n tobikun arh.. got the im-pro-you're-lan-not-happy-come-fight-with-me-but-i'll-still-win face.. cannot take it.. hahahhahaha~ then there was this time when vie n tobikun were sitting by the side distracted when i accidentally knocked on a ball with the other stick and it went into the hole! hahhaha~ it was our ball summo! hahhahahahhahaha~ i laughed until i got abs liao lor! hahahhhaha~ damn funny can!!! hahahhaha~ and they didnt notice until we started laughing like mad then vie got to the table and asked what did i do. i just denied everything which made it funnier and i couldnt stop laughing. hahahaha~ then we went off together at 6.30.. i went home then vie n yj went ps to eat.. know they will be talking abt donghwa stuff... hope isnt anything bad abt me.. i get quite upset when someone talks bad abt me.. just get hurt la.. i'd rather they tell me whats wrong in a nice way.. i'll be sad but not that sad.. haha~ irrational logic..

Rei bboyed at 21:01

Tuesday, September 23, 2003

yesterday talked to kyunghee on the phone from 9.50 to midnite.. seemed that donghwa got problems.. yea.. im the sloth one here.. i dont seem to find any problems? ok.. kyunghee says im inobservant and too easy-going.. i think so.. but i was quite amazed at the no. of problems.. dunno what to say... today went to sch feeling happy coz i love tues... short day and no taxing lessons.. yay! haha~ then in the morn, i went crazy over yahui's mag.. got shinhwa! hahhahaa~ was so excited.. the got jtl, kangta n heejun.. wee! and heejun n kangta were so cute. heejun had to interview kangta mah.. so he was like "hello, mr. kangta!" the kangta played along and said, "hi! This is our first meeting eh? Nice to meet you!" hahahhaa~ so cute can! no need.. then the interview on shinhwa was on whta they do during summer times.. and junjin's reply was utterly no need! hahhaaa~ he said he wear shirt n shorts. then when it gets too hot, he just wear his underwear?!?!?! o_0" he was saying that there was this time in the middle of the night he felt hungry so he went out half-naked like that and he met his neighbour and got a shock coz he didnt expected to see anyone out on the street so late. hahahhaha~ argh. no need to be so hot. ok. nvm. then arh, our so moralistic teacher confiscated my piece of paper full of people's blog.. i think she just wanna go there and check out like all lame teachers do. was damn mad at her. well, not only me la huh. she just suck. whatever. got fire drill but i was halfway doing my art when it rang. so i brought it out with me to do. colored abit b4 realising that i need a cardboard to support. ok.. so stopped doing. started playing the grass and making sounds out of it.. still not as pro as vie.. then after sch supposed to go with the haha gang to haharbourfront.. but they had amaths so i decided i shall go with them on sat instead of today.. went home n listened to my shinhwa while doing art.. then composed a few tunes.. quite nice la.. i think. hahhahahhahaha~ then went to bathe. then in the bathroom, i was thinking like if me n hyesung marry each other, our child will turn out with super round face.. hahaha~ quite sad eh? haix.. tobikun saengil chuka nun naeil.. cant wait! haha~ im always excited when such things come up.. *wee!*

Rei bboyed at 19:30

Monday, September 22, 2003

wooyea!!! susan tan, for the first time in my history of attending her classes, did not come to school!!! wahahahahahahahahahaha! you have no idea how happy i am! i was worrying like mad last night, staying up till 12 plus to do abit of my art.. then i couldnt take it anymore so i went to sleep. ahhahaha~ then went to school hurrying to finish my drawings.. only managed to finish my 2 unfinished prawns and started getting spasms when the bell rang at 1.30. went off to art feeling horribly sick in the stomach. AND SHE WASNT THERE~!!!!!! hahhahahaha~ thane told me she wasnt there and i was sooo bloody happy!! i was jumping up and down like mad! yay!!! hahaha~.. anyways, coz got no art, i went off to meet up chevie, yj, cameraman (manager dont wanna gan le. she think being cameraman more fun. hhahaa~) lynne n tong. played pool for awhile b4 leaving for ps. yj went home first the lynne n tong went food court. the rest of us went yoshi and sat there eating n chatting abt stuff. chatted abt donghwa blabla. haix.. problems are arising la huh. then my class also got politics. haiyo.. then whole day they all come tell me one. im like so neutral here. then getting abit irritated abt somebody too. shall not name the person. then ya la.. like tt. so many things happening.. haix. cannot keep track at all.. but presently, im most worried abt donghwa's future. i really hope we're not breaking up. really.. ok.. must pray fervently everyday liao..

ps KPOP HEAVEN IS CLOSING THIS SUNDAY! FASTER GO GET YOUR STUFF BEFORE IT CLOSES AND THEN YOU'LL HAVE TO BUY FROM ME AT A BLACK MARKET PRICE! WAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Rei bboyed at 21:31

Sunday, September 21, 2003

k la.. got lotsa comments on me being mad at my parents.. im not angry anymore.. but my dad was just irritating me just now. anyways, went for the facial today. utterly rocks! hahaha~ the atmosphere bloody nice can? i was lying there so shuang.. thinking of gg again but bloody ex. cannot take it. went out feeling so refreshed! *wee!* then went to my granma hse b4 dad sent me to akltg. Today's meeting was quite boring la.. vote for council members what shit. Then this mixblood guy was the president. he looked like he's damn stuckup and snobbish? cannot take it. but he has the confidence la i agree. hope he can plan fun events? i really wanna play sports.. if he includes ultimate frisbee in the upcoming party, i'd love him like mad! he'll have my fullest support! yay!... then my face arh.. haix. cannot take it. it's lan-ing happily. *wee.* argh.. waeyo?!?!?!?!?!?! hahaha~ went back to my granma hse after akltg.. got winded of this secret mission my relatives are planning and im involved?! wow! ahahhaha~ am not supposed to tell anyone.. shh.. but its ok! you all will get to know like a year later! wait happily k! then must support! *wee!* oh.. christina wants me to help spread that Project S will be out at kpop heaven this week. Go and buy! - only for kpop fans. If you interested, go buy too! i'll love you if you do. hahhahaha~ korean artistes only earn like 10 cents per album sold. so can you imagine 10 cents divide by 3? thats only like 3 cents.. so sad right? so go buy! buy orginal! stamp out piracy!

Rei bboyed at 21:38

Saturday, September 20, 2003

woke up damn early on a saturday. at 8. woah.. *applause for jm* haha~ dad was quite mad that he couldnt send me to school with my bro.. weirdo la him. whatever. i cannot be bothered. went to sch and was nearly late for oral. was running towards the G block having no idea where the mtl oral room was. ran and ran feeling very nervous. then saw ang lay peng from a distance. ran like mad towards her. stepped into the class right after her. phew. and oral utterly sucks. i mispronounced one word and my conversation was cocked up. argh. stayed in class till 12 plus coz i wanted to get home after 12. talked to the hagang la huh.. then now im among them?.. so weird.. haha~ then they were pulling me to go harbourfront mac.. but i had to get home coz my mom said she'll bring me go facial.. then dunno what happen to her la. pms or what shit. suddenly refused to accompany me to go. say what next week. like i so free like her la. *takes eyes out and puts them on rollercoaster* its like my first time going and she come and say she dont wanna go out today. whatever. rot at home la. my dad also. cannot even send me there. he's utterly against the idea lor. say what i dont need to go facial. say what take toothbrush brush it out can liao. or take detergent. ya la huh. so funneh. so funneh i laugh till my mouth drop out la huh. so bloody unsupportive one. whole day like that. whatever things im interested in, they dont give a shit. if its studies arh, they happy like mad. other than that, you die they also dont care. cannot be bothered abt them. they whole day like this i whole day like that to them la. dont care abt me dont care lor. like i give a shit to you. next time wanna go out dont force me to go along la! i just want someone to accompany me also cannot. you 3 go out together la! happy family! then i happy family myself at home! happy family with my com la! whole day say what i place more importance in my friends than my family. duh right! you all dont support me my friends does what! my friends are willing to go the extra mile for me you arent what! of course i place more importance to my friends right? rot la. rot in front of the tv enjoying your stupid surround system. program what shit. cannot even give moral support to your daughter. ya la huh. your new surround system is more impt than your useless tomboyish daughter la huh. rot la.

Rei bboyed at 17:23

Friday, September 19, 2003

had such a fun day.. i love fridays! hahaha~ coz i got like 4 free periods! woohoo! haha~ was writing the donghwa profiles for everyone.. we're gg to do a glog mah.. then must have profiles.. haha~ happily writing away la huh.. then it was ss.. josef tan come n ask me abt the dance thing again.. ya.. i think he's nice. then he suddenly talked abt blogs. i hope he doesnt come here. anyways, met up with donghwa during recess. gave them the profiles thing and asked them to fill it up. havent got myao's one done yet though. then after recess, free period again. went to mpr to listen to my newly bought shinhwa 1st album! yea! hahhaa~ i love nur nega wonhanun gosun can? haha~ utterly rocks! one of the few slow songs i like. went back to class for maths. utterly boring. i totally hate mr phua. i mean, he's pitiful and all but he's really like dead. then english.. i think azlin is a nice person.. but she didnt write good comments abt me in my report so maybe she's hypocritical? dunno la huh.. you just cannot trust teachers sometimes... then she wanted to start our creative juices rolling so she had us closing our eyes and envisioning ourselves in a place where we want to be most. my mental picture was some chio hills then i lie there and began cloud-gazing la huh. anyways, we had to write it out la. then i was sitting alone mah.. so she told us to stop after a while but i still havent finish so i continued writing.. then janice wanted to exchange paper with me.. but i was like saying i havent do finish. then halfway writing, azlin came by my table and wanted to read it. i didnt want to let her read one, but she teacher i student.. what can i do? so i ran out of class to the toilet coz i didnt wanna see her reaction to my compo. and i came back to hear her READING my compo out to the WHOLE class!!! argh!! i was like OMG! then ran outta class. anyways, this is my compo:

In a white frock and feeling elated, I skipped merrily up the small, picturesque hill behind my cottage. Dashing barefooted, I felt the warm and velvety-soft, knee-length grass beneath my feet. The gentle breeze called out to me as I rolled around the green field. I flipped and lay flat, my arms and legs outstretched like a starfish. Gazing serenely at the clouds slowly rolling by me like a filmstrip, I began to amuse myself by guessing the shapes. "Ah! Here comes a giant with his fist! Oh! There goes a cat with a fish in its mouth!" I gasped as I thought to myself. My eyelids began to flutter as the aroma of nature wafted into my nose, filling the air with fragrance. Minute by minute, my eyelids began to close. "Here again?" A soft, gentle voice called out to me. I smiled and opened a fraction of my eyes. My grandmother, sitting beside me in her flowery dress, stroked my head with affection. Singing me a lullaby, I was lulled to sleep by her peaceful, beautiful voice. Smiling in my sleep, a distant voice echoed, "Sleep tight, my child."

kyunghee and che-i said it was nice.. even azlin... hmm.. dunno la. i think it could have been better. bahx. thought back of my last time composed songs.. told donghwa.. the first one they say is too christian la.. then the 2nd one they modify.. actually the 2nd one is for my granma.. hahaha~ after sch went ps long johns to rot again. che-i came up with our logo design. think it is quite nice. maybe should change it into a graffiti kinda thing. will look even nicer. manager went off after awhile before kyunghee, che-i and me walked ard. bought tako balls and saw this girl with a cool hairstyle. then met ws but so sad she didnt bring her cam.. if not we would have take a pic of that girl. went home with che-i.. wee.. happy day.. happy life..

Rei bboyed at 20:15

Thursday, September 18, 2003

had free period.. went behind the temp block to listen to my newly burned cd.. then saw dunno which sec3 class playing ultimate frisbee.. was damn excited! haha~ then started thinking back last year how nice it was to play with my team mates.. i rmb sophie n chevie.. that sophie whole day enthu like shit one.. haha~ then chevie is ALWAYS the catcher.. haha~ then felt sad ya.. coz like i can rmb it like it happened yesterday instead of a year ago.. and now, they are having prelims and getting ready to graduate while im stuck here. then i thought abt how i was in s3 for like all my life.. and was supposed to be in s3 all my life until i got retained. feel really sad sometimes. hated myself so much before. still hate myself but that feeling only comes once in while... ok.. maybe more than that but i try not to think abt it.. then during eng, azlin wanted 2 pple with chio writing to write some compo on board.. tt stupid yasmeen go say my name n thane one. arloe. look my handwriting. totally suck lor. so i tried to write nice.. but dunno what happen it started slurring n becoming damn messy la huh.. haix. then everyone laughed at this stupid thing i did. argh. then p.e had ultimate frisbee! damn fun! i love ultimate frisbee!!! ahaahahaa~.. then that yahui had to come and spoil my day during recess and told me she got the preview tix to see my teacher, mr kim. argh.. and she'll get to see cha dunno what in person?! argh.. no need lor! and guess who gave her the tix la! susan tan! give also must give everyone right! not say art girls got alot also.. only 5. so cheapskate one. then during chem arh, like usual, g3 were complaining abt tan tze yong n the teachers la huh... then dunno what happen also suddenly leow-kuah come and compliment me.. say what she had to write a report on me (what is the world coming to?! am i really that notorious?! im guai now lor! k la! not say very guai but marked improvement from last yr!).. then she said she wrote good things abt me (im planning to start studying hard for chem now. i must pass chem, get high marks and make her happy! :) ) coz so coincidental, she saw my boards on that day and said it was very nice. to quote her, she said my whole face "lit up".. erbx. no need.. haha~ maybe i did la huh.. i also dunno.. i feel very happy when people compliment me one.. who wont right? hhaha~ but i rmb very clearly i was saying it was ugly what.. hm.. dunno la. then she said ms goon actually came by and told her that jingwen needs a good pat on the shoulder?! hahaha~ that was funny.. she said i just needed more patience to teach to la.. haha~ then again she started her lesson.. then teach teach teach she got irritated by the constant chattering in our class. then she was like shhhh!!! oh! cannot say that! then she went on to say abt what people with different abilities blabla.. then she happily come say me again?! -_-" she said like me what im good in arts so she wouldnt pressure me to work in my sciences but encourage me in my arts.. haha~ i was like thinking i where got so good in art? you tell me music more believable la.. haha~ i felt happy that leow-quah is so nice to me.. very seldom got teachers nice to me one lor.. so i compiled a list of teachers who were nice to me.. mr bo, ms chua, mrs han, mdm lim, josef tan, leow-quah.. the others i dont really know la huh.. in front of me they so nice.. but my report they write mean things abt me.. o_0 whatever. went kpop heaven today. bought badges set A. then went down to long john again but saw our seat was taken by kkangpaes. so scary. im damn scared of kkangpaes one.. anyways, managed to seat at our seats when they left.. hengx. then met angelia n hari.. hahha~ angelia so nice lent me 20 bucks.. so i happily ran up and bought shinhwa extinct 1st album!!! yay!!!!! hahhaha~ so happy~ wee~ lalalalalalala~ :D anyways, jyongmin fighting!!! must work hard in chem now! even though like quite late la huh, at least dont fail so badly! yea! FIGHTING!

Rei bboyed at 21:46

Wednesday, September 17, 2003

jiawen is like so funny. she kept this packet of orange tea which sophie drank from.. and she happily hop into class and asked me to guess who gave it to her. im like duh. sophie. then she started laughing to herself and asked me to say hi to it. im like duaiox -_-". did something bad today. cannot say it here.. haha~ i heard that teachers visit people's blog.. dunno how they get the add la huh.. must be some over-enthu pple give their blog to teacher then got link so they link link link and they read.. haha~ anyways, cleared one of the reserved stuff at kpop. bought the badges set B. went to long johns again. sat at the same spot again. didnt had those kind of talk la.. but we were gg mad there. started discussing our album cover and mvs.. haha~ had so much fun.. told kyunghee abt the mean thing on che-i n my mind.. felt so mean again. argh. i MUST stop thinking mean thoughts. its really mean... anyways, akltg got club liao. club meeting this sunday at 2.30 at dunno where.. they nv even send me a letter.. ermx. no need lor.. i think they tried calling me but my hp spoiled la. dropped like dunno how many thousand times and it spoiled. i cannot hear the caller's voice but they can hear me. stupid la. whenever pple call i feel so dumb one. haix. gonna get new phone. but no money! argh.. sad case la.. i poor.. what to do.. and toby finally agreed to be our manager! yay! haha~ we were so happy man~ donghwa, konbaaaaeeeeeeeeee!!!

Rei bboyed at 21:19

Tuesday, September 16, 2003

was wondering why was chevie late.. coz she normally come ard the time i come one.. or even earlier.. was worrying that something had happened but then thought like what can happen on the way to school.. turned out she was involved in a bus crash and bumped her head on the metal pole.. ouch. thats very pain.. sophie too. apparently, she very smart la huh.. bus crash then she softened her fall by landing on a junior who bumped her head coz of sophie.. anyways, she got a cracked wrist. double ouch. then todya no assembly but had class interaction. instead of tan tze yong or mrs heng coming, the class called lucy tan to hold the a maths remedial so that they can go off earlier.. so i happily zao to tanglin mall where i met up with che-i n tobykun (she refused to be our manager anymore coz of reasons i dont wanna say here.) anyways, was discussing abt our coming trip to bioskin.. haha~ coz we need it badly! but we had to postpone it coz che-i got a bump on her forehead.. then went off ard 1 plus to far east kpop heaven.. heard from che-i who saw at the h.o.t forum that they are closing down.. was so shocked. i called christina to confirm and she said ya.. stayed there till 3 plus 4 plus.. hahaha~ dunno what we do also.. talked to christina, enjoyed the songs and the shinhwa 2003 concert playing on the tv there.. then picked what we wanted.. slowly picked.. haha~ got so many things to buy lor.. oh man. im totally broke now. told christina to help me reserve those i wanted.. so many lor.. dongwan stickers, hyesung stickers, minwoo gift pack, shinhwa 1st jib, h.o.t concert, shinhwa dvd, 2 cd stickers n memo, 3 set of badges.. woah. she helped me put them in a pack and wrote my name on it.. gonna go everyday to slowly clear out my pile.. so excited.. haha~ after that, che-i and me went long johns to sort out our stuff before eating and talking abt donghwa and our dreams.. also talked abt lotsa stuff.. i cant believe she was thinking the same thoughts as me! i was actually thinking abt it on monday.. but felt quite mean.. turned out that she also was thinking the same as me and she felt mean too.. hahaha~ she didnt wanna say it out for days but she couldnt take it anymore and had to blurt it out to me.. hahahaha~ we were like laughing like mad and ^5-ing each other.. i love such talks.. haha~ didnt know che-i also experienced what kyunghee n me went through.. and we agree that being friend-less for a period of time actually makes you treasure your relationship with your friends more.. and you learn to tolerate people's nonsense more too. I think everyone should go through a friend-less period coz its proven that you'll turn out to be a nicer person.. even though the process is actually damn saddening.. will forever remember my first day of school this year. get sad when i think abt it.. haix. felt quite alone for like the first 4 or 5 mths... then i had donghwa! :) ha neu nim, chongmal kamsahamnida.. nan ijen chongmal haengbokaeyo..

Rei bboyed at 20:53

Monday, September 15, 2003

today quite happy n got a bit of sadness la.. then summore forgot to bring my wallet n hp.. haha~ happy coz josef tan complimented our dance until damn nice.. i was so happy.. he was saying that we should perform our dance at some place to showcase la.. then he also say that we got the standard and that everyone can dance.. yay! hahahha~ i was so delirious.. woohoo! DONGHWA FIGHTING! hahaha~ then happy for the rest of the day.. then felt stupid also.. coz during a maths which is free period for me, i ran into the class wanting to take something. but the moment i ran to my desk, i forgot what i wanted. so i ran out. then ran to canteen before remembering what i wanted to take. ran back in again. jaclyn n tinwai were staring at me weirdly. felt like an alien. then ran out of class out of maluation n didnt open the knob properly and crash against the door. felt really stupid. then summo during eng, i was rushing to finish my compo. in the end didnt finish on time when azlin called out our row to hand in our work. had to stand in front of the class with like 3/4 of the class in front. conitnue rushing through.. hoping to finish. then she started giving a lecture. halfway through the lecture, i was done. then yasmeen, sitting in front of me, told azlin. then azlin stared at me. so i said can i not get booked. then she said you were not listening to my lecture right? of course i said i got listen la! even though i didnt even know she was lecturing.. but thats not the pt. then she wanted to see my compo. she looked at my compo and asked me how long it was. so i started counting the words and everyone started laughing. -_-" felt so duaio. in the end, she say my compo too short and want me to redo. haix. then today after art ended, i couldnt find donghwa anywhere. classrm was locked. so i found someone with a hp and msged yj. then dunno why i could suddenly rmb myao's no. and called her.. but no one picked up.waited from 3.50 pm to 4.30 but no one replied. felt quite sad n lonely.. haix.. u know me la.. whole day when no friends ard i get sad thoughts one.. started thinking they abandoned me.. felt very sad so i decided to leave.. then just as i was leaving, myao called and told me they were at tanglin macs. turned out that they msged me but i didnt bring my hp so i didnt know... haha~ must rmb to bring hp everyday.. wallet too. and must stop thinking stupid thoughts coz DONGHWA LOVES ONE ANOTHER! haha~ :)

Rei bboyed at 20:43

Saturday, September 13, 2003

1st day:
went to school.. had to take a taxi coz i was carrying too much stuff.. (f*ck. i forgot to save my blog. it got deleted. have to redo. f*ck.) anyways, waited till 12 plus for them.. saw hari's present for me on my table.. it was a boomerang and a box of scented candles.. she gave me coz she saw my sad blog... was quite touched la.. thanks hari.. haha~ then tried playing with the boomerang and felt stupid having fun by myself in the classroom.. somemore no one was there.. then got bored and walked out.. saw che-i n kyunghee walking by.. haha~ went to canteen with them and saw yj there... sat the red chairs and talked.. we're doing the guardian angel.. and i have no idea which part im doing.. they didnt wanna go back to maths class since left only 5 min.. then they realised that lucy tan will be walking out.. so we ran to the hall there and talked.. then i remembered tt the hall had a grand piano and went to play. I remembered i composed this tune and wanted to ask them whether it was nice or not. in the end they say it was nice! haha~ then they were thinking of the intro and it fitted damn nice! hahaha~ the song not even composed and they were thinking of what kind of mv we were produce.. haha~ went back to class to pack our stuff and went to com lab, wanting to edit the dance. but the com lab pple said come back at 2.30.. so we went off to eat at ps.. came back at 3 plus to edit again but the com lab pple not ard then cannot get the cable from them.. waited till 4 plus then yj, manager n me went off to myao's house. chose a rm but the aircon wasnt working. went to the other rm but the air con wasnt much better. unpacked everything n settled down to study but realised we had no cd player. yj n me were traumatised and started msging n calling everyone who lived near normanton park.. in the end, we went my granma house to get the player. did a bit of chapter 6 mindmap.. filmed some video of us dancing thanks to manager la... keep wanting to dance perfect man freestyle.. slept at 12 plus

2nd day:
woke up at 9 plus and ate maggee mee. watched some tv before doing my mindmap again.. managed to finish it before going down to the playground with yj.. suddenly saw a familiar blue car and went to look.. turned out to be my dad's car.. was so shocked.. called my mom and she told me they went up to look for me but i wasnt there.. thye actualy wanted to ask me along for dinner with my granma.. haha~ oops. then kyunghee started msging lotsa lame jokes. "why did Eve eat the forbidden apple? because it tasted better than Adam's banana." "one day, elephant asked the camel why your neh neh grow on your back? Camel got angry and said, why dont you ask why your ku ku chiao grow on your face?" hahahahaha~ she bloody lame one la.. last year told me so many lame jokes all i laughed like mad.. hahahaha~ then at night, we filmed a ghost movie.. haha~ yj acted lost and manager tapped her on her shoulder. then yj spun ard frightened and screaming before seeing me sitting in a corner of a room rocking this cat bolster, singing lullaby to it. for some reason, my eye were glowing white. damn scary.. then i stood up and walked to yj, offering her my "baby" to carry.. i totally freaked myself out when i saw the movie.. my eyes were glowing white. woah. slept at 2 plus anticipating che-i's arrival.

3rd day:
had to wake up at 7 to go to clementi macs to meet che-i. yj had a damn hard time waking me up.. haha~ was so happy to see che-i. talked and ate before leaving for normanton park.. played for awhile before doing my ss chapter 7 mindmap.. did half of it before watching tv and ltr, going down for bbq. felt awkward ard myao's family there.. bbq-ed some food before i saw LONGANS. i was soo excited i started jumping in front of yj.. hahaha~ peeled them and put them in a cup.. went to where yj n che-i were sitting and put the cup on the ground as the chairs were full of food. went to get my food and i turned ard.. only to KICK MY LONGANS!!!! the longans started rolling out and left only 3 longans.. *sobx* went to peel new ones but this time, i was careful not to put it on the ground. took my bbq-ed corn and wanted to bite it.. but it rolled out of my mine ONTO THE GROUND!!! argh.. i was just plain suay. then myao n jennifer started dragging kachee into the pool. i helped. then kachee n myao dragged jennifer into the pool. che-i n me helped. then we felt scared as they might target us.. so we hugged each other's arms and sat on a chair together. kachee n jennifer got up from the pool.. and started walking towards us. but dunno why they changed target and started dragging myao. she latched onto my leg first.. then i couldnt hold on to her. then she latched on to che-i's arm but che-i also couldnt hold on to her. in the end, she was thrown into the pool. then the 3 of them started pulling me in. i grabbed che-i's leg and just held on to it. they started bribing che-i but she didnt listen to them! chongaml kamsahamnida, chinku!!! hahaha~ then they managed to drag me to the grd and i was shouting at manager to save me.. she held on to me.. haha~ manager jjang! hahhaa~ then they targeted che-i and she held on to manager. but she was slipping so i quickly held on to her.. the 3 od us were dragged across the ground and we got very near the pool. suddenly i grabbed che-i and and started moving back furiously.. haha~ dunno why la huh.. got sudden surge of strength.. then the 3 of them were trying desperately to pull us in front to no avail.. i was just suddenly very strong la huh.. then myao had to go behind me to stop me from moving behind but she also had no strength.. from beside the pool, we moved a good distance away.. hahhaa~ was so happy.. then they had a stroke of genius and took a bucket to drench us with water. but che-i and i knew they wouldnt just let us go like that so we ran away.. ran n ran and finally, they gave up. walked back with myao but che-i n me pushed her into the pool. they attacked us with the bucket again... hahaha~ attacked finish we walked back again.. then we pushed jennifer into the pool. they attacked us again.. but this time, they managed to drag us into the pool.. i tink coz we were wet then we had no friction against the ground.. waited till myao's family left before we dived into the pool for fun.. then i saw yj crying so i went up to comfort her.. was wet so i could only used my finger to rub her back and comfort her.. sat on the upside down bucket.. then after a while, i felt the bucket becoming warmer and i looked down. i was leaking. was so shocked. started ranting abt manager lying to me then quickly washing away the leaking. everyone laughed la huh.. got so malu. jumped back into the water to stop the leaking.. then che-i n i took myao aside to talk abt she n yj thing.. then i got another shock of my life. myao told me that alot of people in s3 dont like me. was quite hurt. i consider s3 to be my class lor.. and alot of them dont like me. was quite sad.. went back and bathed and msg kyunghee.. was crying silently.. but che-i still noticed something was wrong. i told her nothing la.. coz i think my problem is peanuts compared to yj's one. slept at 2 plus..

4th day (today):
woke up to me kicking the cupboard.. quite pain. but went back to sleep. woke up again choking as my nose suddenly got blocked. then che-i started complaining that she would never sleep with me again.. haha~ coz apparently, last night, whenever she turned on her side and wanted to turn back later, i would be occupying that space... then she was squeezed and flattened against the cupboard that she seriously considered sleeping in the cupboard.. hahahaha~ then she woke up to find her legs off the bed, the whole body bent. hahahhahha~ then yj was saying she had damn lotsa space coz i was squeezing che-i against the cupboard! HAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!! so funny.. hahahha~ i didnt know i do that in my sleep.. hahahahhhaha~ my granma told me that in seoul, i was doing sit-ups in my dream. another incident was i woke up to find myself playing imaginary air hockey. hahahhaa~ then i used to kick people sleeping beside me.. poor granma.. anyways, didnt do much work that day coz it was the last day.. slack slack slack.. then we went off at ard 6 plus. my dad came to pick us up at ard 7.30pm.. he must be in a damn happy mood coz he actually sent yj to clementi stn n che-i to her home! hahhaa~.. oh ya.. then b4 my dad came to pick us right, i was msging him whether can send my che-i home anot.. then he was like see first. so i told che-i la.. then i told her that must also see whether he good mood anot.. then yj n che-i was like ok! must sing his fave songs when they get into the car. so i told them he like chn oldies.. then me n yj at the same time started to sing "lu bian yi ke~ rong shu xia~" hahahhahahha~ damn funny can! donghwa got damn lotsa mo qi! hahhaha~ then so funny.. after sending che-i home, my dad's car cd player started blasting that song! hahahaha~ i laughed like mad to myself.. hahaha~

Rei bboyed at 21:31

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

omg. guess what?! MY DAD IS GOING KOREA!!!!!!!!! he bought this bmw tour bike for quite some years and all the while, he had been in this bmw bike club which organises trips.. he has been going to thailand for all these years on bike trips... and this year, bmw KOREA is having their 80th anniversary and they are inviting foreign fellow bikers to join in their celebrations. As KOREA law doesn't allow people to ship/fly in their bikes, foreign bikers will have to rent one there which the club will arrange for them. They will be biking ard SEOUL and JEJU DO for 5 days. 5 whooping days in KOREA. im bloody jealous of my dad. he'll be gg at a time when im having my finals!!! argh!!! im handing a loooong list of the things i want.. most probably shinhwa, FRJ, Lecaf blabla.. oh.. and H.O.T stuff for isa and 1TYM stuff too.. i wonder whether bmw KOREA will be inviting any artistes to celebrate.. *sobx* i wish im going. :..(

anyways, will most probaby wont be updating my blog for these few days. coz i'll be staying over at myao's other house for intensive revision with her, kachee, toby, yj, chev and isa? im not so sure whether shes gg or not.. but i'll try to update when i go to sch.. annyong~

Rei bboyed at 09:37

Tuesday, September 09, 2003

SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA/SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA/SARANG HANUN JINGHUI/SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA~!~!~!~!

my brother's birthday today.. had so much fun singing him the birthday song at 12 midnite. He was in my room sitting on my bed and happily enjoying the aircon when i started singing. then he jokingly asked where's my present. I told him to wait and opened my cupboard. Then i took out a skirt and handed it to him and said "there, your birthday present." hahahaha~ i laughed like mad.. then he was like -_-" haha~ then i took out the doraemon lantern and gave it to him. He was like wow! where you buy one? then i said guess? so he guessed cine, taka, blabla.. then he got tired of guessing. so i laughed and told him it was free and that isabel gave me to give him one. he said "cheapskate." hahaha~ then i gave him the doraemon notebook. then he said, "free one again arh?" i violently protested, since i bought it myself. then he was like saying cheap one right? haha~ but i told him i forgot the price.. which i really did. then he talked for awhile before i gave him the 3rd present. It was a doraemon seat belt strap. he said "wah! im going put that on daddy's car tmr!" then he talked for for like 5 minutes more abt doraemon stuff. Then i handed him the next present. A doraemon keychain which changes the face when you push the pocket, which is the button. then he was so happy.. he talked about doraemon again for like another 5 minutes. Then he went on to say that he had never received so many presents from one person before. He also remembered that there was one year when he only received one present. hahaha~ all the time, i was fiddling with his wrapped present - a candy-shaped wrapped present. then i just suddenly hand it to him and said "there, your 5th present." he was very shocked. "no la! dont bluff me! this one for your friend one right?" i insisted that it was his present. "no la! i know its for your friend one.. dont bluff me." hahha~ then i just kept insisting and he kept saying i bluffed him.. then he finally accepted it. he opened the sides first before moving on to the middle. he slowly, very slowly peeled open the wrapper and asked me. "which side is the face facing?" "your side." "oh no!" then he turned the present to the other side. he took off the wrapper and put it aside. "wah! so cute!" he started squeezing the round tail. then he examined the bottom of the doraemon bolster, the body before looking away as he put the doraemon face in front of him. "Is it cute? is it cute?" "i dunno." "ahhh.." then very slowly, he turned his head around with his eyes half-closed. then he shouted. "ahh!!! so cute!!! so cute!!" then he just kept grinning at the doraemon like an idiot. hahhah~ he grinned at it for like 5 minutes? hahahha~ anyways, the whole giving the present thing lasted like 45 minutes.. i felt like a 21 yr old adult and my brother, a 3 yr old kid. hahahha~ too bad i didnt film it down. i think it was so funny.. hahaha~ :)

SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA/SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA/SARANG HANUN JINGHUI/SAENGIL CHUKA HAMNIDA~!~!~!~!

Rei bboyed at 21:16

ws is so nice! haha~ she offered to do my site for me when i didnt even ask her.. :) konbae! also to mel, who so kindly signed up a tagboard for me, konbae! haha~ i remember sitting with ws last year.. but we didnt really talk much.. i thought she was quite rude and everything la.. but yj told me that ws is actually very nice.. and she is! haha~

anyways, yesterday went to sch and had so much fun.. i did my maths abit la.. but most of the time we were playing like shit.. haha~ we were using the video cam and filming like shit.. damn funny.. laughed n laughed.. then we went to the hall to redance our dance and we just keep playing there! chevie and isa started doing the eric 2nd concert make money rap.. haha~ then theres this part where eric drops his pants before saying "uh oh! uh oh!" then they were trying to do that.. haha~ bloody funny.. laughed till i died.. then started the dance.. the first one was good.. but we did a second one n lilynne fell. then it was my turn to crash on my head when doing the flip. haha~ but very fun! woohoo! will be posting the vid up once we edit it. :) DONGHWA FIGHTING!

Rei bboyed at 12:13

Sunday, September 07, 2003

alright. done everyting for u already jingwen. dis is the best i can do for the past wks entry u haf on geocities. (: hope u like it. if not ok den wait until after prelims i help u k? in the meanwhile, u better study hard also hor? hee :P dunch u delete my dis entry.

- lotsa luv frm ur dear f&n partner, ws

Rei bboyed at 16:35

Saturday 060903
went to school for art today even though i dont need to go. wanted to finish my batik as soon as possible. im totally lagging behind thane n gloria. susan tan praised our dance and asked me whether we all go disco everyday.. if not, why our dance so good? haha~ lame.. haha~ but i was sooo happy. People loved our dance! ok, only crescentians and 3 teachers. Only josef tan, susan tan n mdm lim gave good comments. the rest, bah. sharon goh said our dance was nice until she noticed i was there, therefore, the dance was not nice. right. she just hates me right? whatever. and few teachers were arguing whether i was in g3 or s3. whats their problem? does it matter whether im in s3 or g3? rot in hell. anyways, i went to yj hse right after art. was discussing abt the staying over at myao's hse n our redance of our dance coz the video cam tong borrowed from the com lab didnt work and we only got the first and end part of our performance. therefore, we are dancing again on mon at the hall or mpr. im hoping for the hall.. gives me good memories. haha :D

Wednesday 030903
Was very sad today. I actually went to school in a happy mood and was still happy until they dismissed the sec 4s coz of prelims. As i watched them go off, i felt very very sad. all those familiar faces, faces i grew up watching almost everyday. Faces whom i knew i wont be seeing again next year and i'll be all alone. I really felt like kicking myself for cheating in the mid years. if i didnt cheat, i would be there, happily enjoying myself with my friends and graduating with everyone else. I hate the person who told on me. i really hate her. she ruined my whole life. after share-a-thought which i couldnt laugh at, i went down and saw mr m. My first thought was to ask him whether retainees would be invited to the grad nite.. he said no, retainees are not graduating, therefore, they cannot go. disappointed, i ask again. "then can i not go next year?" he looked at me, surprised. "dont you have any memories that make you wanna go?" i looked at him in the eye, and could only sadly say "no. nothing." the words i said really hit me. i really would not have any memories after the sec 4s left.. my most memorable was 2002. that was the best year of my life. no ms chia hounding my back and i had a great class. and i had to get retained. so the rest of the day, i couldnt talk to anyone.. i nearly cried in maths class. then recess, yj noticed that i was down. so she asked me in the canteen whats wrong with me. i said nothing at first. but she insisted and i couldnt help it. i just started tearing and was trying to contain it. at the same time, i was also trying to explain to her whats wrong. then i told her i cant continue coz im gg to cry liao. she pulled me to the staircase and with my back facing the canteen, i just cried there. cried n cried. told her everything. she hugged me and told me its ok, she will come back next year. she also told me that donghwa will wait for me to graduate first b4 we go out. i was so touched i cried even more and she hugged me again. i finally managed to dried my tears. then we walked to the 4th stall to buy food where we met chevie n isabel. they saw my face and with yj telling me not to cry anymore, they immediately asked whats wrong. i teared again?! couldnt help it.. then they were what?! whats wrong?! then yj explained and i cried again. isa hugged me and i couldnt stop crying.. then chevie hugged me and isa started crying too. i cried nonstop. then tong saw me crying n prodded lilynne. then lilynne came and asked what was wrong. yj told her and lilynne was telling me not to cry anymore. couldnt stop tearing after i managed to dry my tears. continue tearing at the 3rd stall when i was ordering laksa. janane comforted me too. she saw me crying.. i tink alot of people saw me crying. who cares? all i know is, i have the greatest bunch of friends in the world and i love them. :)

Sunday 310803
haha~ yj, lilynne n che-i replies to my sms late in the night was so funny! haha~ che-i was like thanking god her phone died and yj n lilynne were saying im mad to msg them in the middle of the night. haha~ *amused*

Saturday 300803
went to school for fun today.sat there from 11 to 12 listening to shinhwa before going to art class to talk to myao. talked for awhille before going to the front porch to wait for my dad. he came an hour later, how slow can he get? :D anyways, went to the oriental coz it was my mom's b'day so we stayed there overnight. my parents left for some meeting of my condo thing and left me n my bro with some money. so we walked ard marina square eating n playing arcade. got utterly bored after a while. anyways, we stayed at the hotel and ard 2 am, i got bored again. not many nice tv shows were on so me n my bro went to esplanade for a walk. nice~ but got bored too. so msged yj, lilynne, che-i, kyounghi n myao.

Friday 290803
AHHH!!! THERE WAS SO MANY COCKUPS IN OUR DANCE!!! ok.. i should start with how the day went first. Went to skool quite late and met lilynne.. during assembly, i kept hiding my hands in my shirt and shorts.. coz i had BLACK fingernails... anyways, my class still saw my fingernails.. haix. Then went parade square for kickboxing, bloody lame.. played with claryce there coz some parts of the kickboxing resembled our dance so we started dancing our dance there.. haha~

then was recess but we didnt went coz we had to put on our makeup.. so went mpr with the modern dance pple.. then changed there n everything.. was too lazy to go toilet to change so changed there.. and that soy hoon!!! she had to peep while i was changing n she saw everytihng!! EVERYTHING! SOY HOON, YOU OUTRAGED MY MODESTY! ARGH!!!! i was so traumatized that after i changed i started doing the loser roll ard the mpr... anyways, our makeup n outfit rocked like hell!!! everyone's hair rocks except for mine. coz my hair cannot style anything! argh! then all of them had funky hair.. *sobx* and i know when pple say we had funky hair on that day, i know they are not talking abt me coz my hair is always like that. <=( anyways, we were like woah! when we saw our outfits with the makeup and we utterly rock! yea! hahaha~ we look so gothic..

we realised that it was like 9.50 plus so we rushed to the hall and on the way, met the com lab pple who saw us and was like woah! i like your outfit! can take a pic? hahhaa~ we were so happy! anyways, we supported the modern dance! then g3 said our outfit rocks.. hahah~ then huiyi said something very funny. she told us to jia you.. then said but dont jia too much you.. coz if you all dance very nice, people might forget us. hahahha~ she funny girl la... then came their dance... peeped out and supported them.. but could only see jiawen from my small peephole.. sad. saw her bandanna came out then she tried to hold it.. but she got irritated after some time n threw it away. hahha~ after their dance, me n myao went back to help lilynne with the makeup.. she was the most gothic among us. i thought my face was white like geisha already. sorry lor, she looked like those clowns. damn white man.. then black eyes... woah. she rocked! then when it was our turn.. omg.. we were like quietly "fighting" among ourselves when 3s3 were singing.. then to relive our nervousness, we started singing along with 3s3.. haha~ came up with a parody version. Yanjing sang "shou qian shou, wo de peng you." lilynne sang the hokkien version "shou qian shou, wa ye peng you" then i sang the korean version "shou qian shou, naui chinku" hahahaha~ reminds me of the parody version we had of joey mcintyre's that change song.. haha~ i should ask toby lend me her voice recorder then record and post here.. hahaha~

anyways, the curtain closed and it was our turn. nervous like shit. was telling myself repeatedly that i shall not dance fast. got into position and the curtain opened. music havent played. lotsa pple were cheering for us. i heard pple shouting lilynne. then suddenly, just b4 the music, toby shouted in this very hoarse voice "neko chan!" we started snickering.. hahhaa~ then music started and arghh!!! che-i danced too fast for intro. i panicked and followed her. When my flip came, my shirt fell and my sb was revealed so i was like ahhh!!! then when yj flipped me over, my pendant came out but i didnt know. Then it started entangling itself with my tie. But i couldnt do anything coz i was in front! Then the guroghe part i forgot to immediately come back!!! Then i hid behind yj to untangle my pendant. the worse part was, i thought we were staying in our final position. but dongdong wanted to bow. so she n yj bowed and me, che-i n kyounghi were still at our final position!! argh!! ok la.. overall it was good. really good! yea! went back to mpr and erffa n vanji came in to congratulate us on our dance.. haha~ had so much fun b4 going back to class.

we went out after that. went to taka thinking of eating crystal jade. but full house with long queue. so we were walking ard seoul garden tt level b4 settling down on this chn restaurant. ate there and played till like shit.. we decided we will be band now.. haha~ our name will be donghwa - meaning tong2 hua4 or fairytale. hahaha~ nice huh? My name is jyongmin, isa kyounghi, chev che-i and lumpy myao. yea! yj n lilynne havent really decided. i mean like, lilynne can't possibly be called dongdong?! n yj cant be yen jing right? oh, tong is our manager! yea! waisi can be our nail painter and toby can be our camera man! hahaha~ the best part is, everyone says our dance was cool!! yay! DONGHWA, FIGHTING!

Thursday 280803
feeling damn nervous. I just dyed the bandages and am feeling damn tired. i stood in front of the basin stirring the black goo for 20 plus minutes!!! Constantly!! Do you know how tiring that is?! staring at nothing but black goo. And my dad so nice, walked by me and said "eeee..." hahaha~ anyways, the rehearsal went quite well today except for lilynne. she fell while doing her flip.. and did a loser roll. hahahaa~ i was so amused. oh yea, angelia cried coz our dance was too cool? at least that's what erffa told me. i think our outfit is cool! considering that we'll be putting on our makeup and bandages tmr! ahhh!! talking abt tmr makes me feel so nervous! and excited! and nervous! and excited! x.x

Monday 250803
Came home from queensway ard 7.45. Met a korean mom n daughter who just touched down from seoul. This guy was trying to be really friendly and was asking them like how's the weather over in korea? Is the same like Singapore, equally hot? but i guess he asked in this really broken eng and the mom, who in the first place doesnt speak good english was confused and replied "my friend." and pointed above. The man was like "nonono! hot! hot! you know.." then he started making panting noises. hahhaha~ it was so funny but i couldnt laugh. So i was snickering to myself and the lift came. When i was stepping, i proudly told the man "it's towoyo." and i tink the lil' girl heard me. anyways, they live at the 13th floor! haha~ that's like my lucky no.! im so proud of the fact that i know some korean words and of chev! coz she taught me the word! chev, konbae!

Sunday 240803
Had a great time yesterday. Went to macs at 9 plus. luckily my dad fetched me there, if not, i'll probably reach there like 10. met nora when i reached tanglin's entrance. Anyways, got a shock of my life when i reach there coz of sophie's hair. It didnt look like sophie. Then nora tying toby's hair in these cute bunches while sophie tied chev's hair.. or was it the other way round? *forgot* anyways, lumpy came soon after and they styled her hair into a mohawk before tying 2 cute bunches at her side. For me, i only tied 2 small bunches at the top of my head. didnt wanna look weird. but couldnt resist it when i reached skool. so chev, yj n toby retied my hair into small bunches.. hopefully, i can get the pics of us from tong n jiamin then post it here. anyways, aaw was kinda fun. missed the wildeyes.hero dance by Illusion though. somemore we ran there. stayed at skool practising teachers' day dance till 2 before leaving for lido kfc. ate for a while b4 gg home to bathe n change into clothes for zpop concert. met up with everyone again b4 gg there. it bloody hell RAINED. we were all soaked wet to the skin. yucks. i hate wet socks in wet shoes. Something funny happened tho. Chev n me were standing behind this woman who had this huge umbrella. So we both struck on the idea of standing under her umbrella and went underneath together. We burst out laughing and high-fived each other. Then we saw that we both wore the same rings we bought together at queensway on the same finger on the same hand. We laughed like mad again before high-fiving again. The woman who unknowingly shared her umbrella with us must think we are mad. hahaha~ anyways, we stood in our wet socks n shoes for a bloody 6 plus hours waiting for park yong-ha, all the while having to listen to unknown singers. Nearly went mad standing there. my feet were killing me. somemore i brought a bag?! luckily, kind toby n yj helped me carry. yay! toby went off halfway before park yong-ha even came out. then when park yong-ha finally came out, it was like 11 plus? his hand was so fag!!! omg.. i love fag! hahaha~ anyways, we went off straight after his performance to citylink's 7-11. bought 2 cups of cup noodles and sat outside there eating n chatting with chev n yj. had lotsa fun tho i 'died' when i shared cab with them to go home. was so tired that i can only groan when the taxi driver ask me which way to turn. stumbled my way home. my security guard probably thought i was some drunkard going home after one night of cheonging.

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