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Monday, November 28, 2005

a sail cast out in the ocean.
aimless; wandering.
with no ports to call of its own.
cox the only port it called home,
has cast it adrift.

Rei bboyed at 13:32

Saturday, November 26, 2005

you may not have me in your memories anymore.
or maybe memories have already left you.
its ok.
cox you are not gone from mine.
but woe to me.
woe to the world.
lost from me, a love.
lost from the world, an angel.
loneliness.
a word thats back.
night.
a cage thats back.
my eyes no longer tear
my heart no longer hurts
numb is the only way to keep going.

Rei bboyed at 15:56

Friday, November 25, 2005

what is love?
how do you explain love to someone who doesnt know the meaning?
love is... love.
what are memories?
how do you put memories that you shared with a loved one into words?
memories are... wonderful.
love is wonderful, so are memories.
love hurts, so does memories.
i never knew this day would come.
im so sorry.
i love you.
i wish you can remember how we met.
i wish you can remember how we sat together.
i wish you can remember how we laughed together.
i wish you can remember how we braved through the storms.
i wish you can remember how much you love me.
i wish you can remember the memories.
i wish you can remember my love.
i wish you can remember me.
always.

Rei bboyed at 17:27

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

been crying like some mad waterhose. over friends and him. (;_;) anyways, he went back to bkk today. (;_;) havent decided whether i wanna go over for a while. i mean, i dont wanna club. and the "restaurants" he goes to, are clubs in disguise. how smart.

anyways, i was thinking about something. something he said triggered it off. i wonder, is it my fault that i can't keep up with society's ever-fast, ever-changing morals and principles, or is it the society's problem. but since im in the minority, i figure that its my problem. but seriously, am i wrong in being conservative? am i wrong in scorning pre-marital sex? am i wrong in loving myself, my body and my dignity? am i wrong in not pasting little pieces of fabrics on me just to lure/attract/bewitch/bait etc. guys so that my self esteem goes into overdrive? am i wrong to loathe clubbing with a vengeance cox it stinks of lust? lust from strangers to strangers. lust from friends to friends. i grieve the lost morals of yesteryear. but like i said, it's my problem, since more than 3/4 of the teenage population, and young adults, practise what i condescend. and yes, im a prude. but you know what? i love being a prude :))

Rei bboyed at 20:57

Sunday, November 13, 2005

so many shit happenin right now. im so friggin exhausted by everything. i just want everything to be cool, but its so hard. and instead of cheering me up, he piled more problems. i want out. pronto.

Rei bboyed at 00:57

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

jayce lim[lin] chun sing.
aged 25.
working at e-games interactive.
you are fucking screwed for life.
you played us,
we are gonna play you now.
but 10 - 15 years later,
thats when the real fun begins.
dont be surprised if your life starts falling apart.
it's no accident.
it's us.
remember us,
cox you dont wanna forget us.
and the shit you fucking land us into.
you will hear from us soon.
very very soon.
no time for prayers.
no use too.
God can't save you,
dont want to anyway.
what goes round, comes round.
do unto others as you would others do unto you.
didnt your mother teach you that?
or at least teachers in school?
or you didnt even have an education?
judging from you still working at some games shop at aged 25,
no.
good luck to whatever career you have in the future.
hopefully it can sustain your lifestyle.
trying so hard to have high end gadgets when you are just a salesman.
working your ass off to get those.
give those money to your parents to pay their loans please.
or if you're so 'rich',
donate it to charity.
earn some merit,
you need it,
unless you like spending your days languishing in hell.

Rei bboyed at 21:55

Thursday, November 03, 2005

i dont think i can ever forgive you entirely. not after what you've done. all the things you've done to me, slowly adds up and stabs my heart. sure, time heals all wounds. but for everytime you hurt me again, my heart remembers the other times when it cried over you. and wounds which i thought were healed, opens and start bleeding all over again. you have never catch my tears when they fall. you are never around when im hurt. you have never been here for me. so many things, i've kept them bottled inside. i cant say them out; im not the expressive type. i cry when i hear love stories - not because they are sweet, but because i know im not as lucky as the girl. cox you can never be my prince. a prince never hurts his princess time and time again, then leaving her to cry her heart out alone.

Rei bboyed at 06:29

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

omg- mina is getting hotter and hotter.

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nosebleeds- i need to get her album NOW.

Rei bboyed at 15:06

uhmm. i was still abit awkward when i went to his house.. cox last night we had HUGEEEE argument. i found out something.. and he admitted to it. anyways, i didnt really know how to face him. so i kept lugging a blanket round to cover my face? hahahahaa lame. but i got mad at him again. cox there were so many girls pix in his com! like wth -______-" i mean, if i have like hundreds of pix of guys in my com whom i go through just to stare at them and think they are so damn cute, its like so abnormal? cox i have a boyfriend? i dont know. anyways, i was like deliberating whether i should be mad at him. hahahaha abit stupid, but sometimes, i dont know how to get angry, and whether i should be angry. cox im seldom mad! only towards him... hahaha anyways, he managed to find out why i was mad at him. but thing was, i started crying about some other stuff, and the problem got ignored. hahahaha partly because i didnt wanna talk about it too haha i just covered my ears and went "LALALALALALALALALA".

anyways, we went to hok's house to celebrate his birthday! the guardian was so cool.. i've never seen a guardian like that before. hahaha she smokes with them, drinks with them, talks to them like one of them, and play cards with them! i was so stunned. we had steamboat and played more daidee. karen came and joined us too! whee~ then we played blackjack and the guardian came up with some lame rules like you cant say the word 'drink', nor can you use your right hand to drink. wth. hahaha i lost a couple of times, and accidentally drank using my right hand -___-" so i had to drink again. karen and i had to leave around 10plus to meet hari at al ameen. BUT THEY CLOSED!!!! wth. we were totally like -___-" wanted to go to kap, but taxi driver took a wrong turn. -____-" so we went to karen's house instead. i was so damn high! hahaha and felt really dizzy.. cox of my contacts. the left one kept moving about! grrrrr. anyways, we started doing really stupid things. >.<>

and im jealous. hari has a psp!

Rei bboyed at 02:51