domokun

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

stop acting like you care and then throw me aside. and stop acting close to me. i hate it. if everything falls apart, i think i'll feel better. at least i dont have to tolerate all these fakeness. its tearing me apart, eating me alive. i need time away. away from all of these, all of the chaos raging ard me.

and to you, my pretty boy, i know my feelings can nv be reciprocrated, and so, i dedicate this song to you.

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
I've been....

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'll be so perfect with me but you just can't see
You turn every head but you dont see me

I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
And I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep and I'll be the first thing you'll see
And you realise that you love me

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
And I know, waiting is all you can do
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep
And I'll put a spell on you
You fall asleep and I'll be the first thing you'll see
And you realise that you love me

Rei bboyed at 20:23

my hair is black!!!! so black!!! bloody black!!! T.T i miss my brown hair.. i really like that color alot!!!! july 29th 22.13hr burial of jingwen's beautiful brown/goldenbrown/greenishblondebrown hair.

Rei bboyed at 18:49

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

I WON THE IMPROVEMENT AWARD!!!!!!! my god.. i cant believe it.. 8 or 10 pts, i forgot. but really wow. i actually won something academic! this is so amazing. i was already amazed when they said jiawen's name. then it was my turn to be shocked. sally, wendy n yasmeen were so shocked too, they cheered super loud. -_____-" cute! ahahhahahaha i was comtemplating whether to take anot coz of my hair. then wendy or sally gave me a push. so i ran all the way to the front n stood a distance away from gaupohteck. i stretched out my hand n took my cert plus gift n he looked at me intensely. "well done, jingwen." i was hurhur. run back. lol~ i hope he didnt notice my hair. I WON AN ACADEMIC AWARD!!!!!!!!!

hmm, and crisis is getting worse. i hate crisis.

Rei bboyed at 15:53

Monday, June 28, 2004

was in a wonderful mood today. didnt get caught for eh-hem (in case any teachers read my blog) and i missed seeing everyone!!!! and guess what? arthi said hi to me after sch! puahahhaha thought it was really funny coz i didnt recognise her at first.. then after a looong while, im like ohh!!! hey!!!! lol~ brought back memories of she, ria, me n dunno who where we stole food together. puahahhaha shall not furthur elaborate since it concern the teachers. anyways, my mood changed when i heard about it.

what a fool i am. im just another sheltered kid in life, not a blip in my life. getting depressed over trivial stuff when people with titanical problems arent even slipping. and there i was, getting pissed over trivial stuff while people worry about their titanical problems. who the heck am i to say i got issues? who the heck am i to get pissed with the world?

screw justice. it's blind. the law is blind. is there even such thing called fairness? is it justice to throw a man to jail when he did nothing? is it justice to see the mastermind get away scot-free? maybe im a pessimist or what, but this friggin world has too many grays. few are black and white. it probably doesnt even exist anymore. blarggh.
im sorry, this is all i can do for you. i feel so much anger, pain, hurt... yet, this is all a 17 year-old with no connections whatsoever can do for you. i wish i can help, help catch him, help find the damning evidence... if i ever see that fucker, i swear he would wish he had never been born.

Rei bboyed at 18:17

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

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im an angel! 난 천사예요! puahahhahahha -flies-

Rei bboyed at 19:17

went raffles y'day n met la n lu. woot! la brought her lappie! so chio... i cant wait to go poly n get one too! la went for her jap n lu n me headed to sw ard 5.

we went inside the studio n waited. 15 mins passed and we were still the only 2 inside. we were getting err... should we leave? when the 2 chaodahs came. finally got to know their names after lu n me talked to them after class. joshua n eugene. yeaa. felt more relieved that there were 4 pple. then kh came n i got so amused. only 4 pple! ahahahhaa kh was cute as always... but i felt so pain for him when he spinned on his head! ouch. he taught so many things, i dont even know whether i can rmb. first time so productive. then at ard 6, sani came! i was totally like 0_0. weird. i thought he wasnt coming. but he seemed happier. laughed more, talked more.. maybe coz his friend was there? yeaa. then sani lent lu his helmet and this foam/sponge supposedly for further cushioning. i looked at it, and it just looked so familiar. after a while, i was like oh!!! my dad has an abundance of them at home!!! lu got so excited. told me to give her some for her herlmet n one big roll for her room. ahahha mad one. but she gave me a fantastic idea of using those foam/sponge as mats! why didnt i think of that?! joanne came too. sani was teaching her chair. asked her whether she can do bridge and when joanne did, sani was like "err, thats very inflexible for a girl." im like how mean?! ahahha then he told her that we all practise at raffles.. ask her to join us too. yarr. so we made new friends! ahahhaha decided since we made one friend, might as well make more. so talked to the the chaodahs. yepp.

jayce came ard 6.45 n we sat down for the street jam ard 7 plus. and mimiyan came! ahahahhaha woot. 3 hotties. street jam was ok, not that bad. the brother-sister popping/locking team impressed me the most. they even used korean music! woot. another grp used JTL enter the dragon! puahahhaa was in a happy mood untill they announced the winner grp. it was this vampy grp wearing leather tights who danced VERY VERY sexily with whips n all. they looked very scary too. T.T was so traumatised sitting there watching their performance. why would any girl do that to themselves? and that bloody cheekohbeh bentley actually stood up n cheered for them so loud! T.T maybe they are his friends. ok. but still... i would cry for my friend if they ever do something like that. oh well. i still clapped for them. half-heartedly. like what la said, not my cup of tea.

rushed to laupasat for a good dinner. yumm. went home n asked my dad for the foam/sponge. he actually handed me this super loooong strip n told me to cut myself. lu, you're gg to have lots of protection for your soon-gg-to-be-bald head. asked sani how muhc he bought the foam/sponge n apparently, its yoshi buy for him from jap. must be ex. woot. so i told him my dad has alot at home. and he said the funniest thing. "your dad headspin too?" PUAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA i was convulsing in my room b4 crawling out to tell my dad. bloody funny. my dad headspin? puahahhahaha

Rei bboyed at 18:06

Saturday, June 26, 2004

blaaarrrgh. everything from head to toe is aching. gonna have to crawl all the way to raffles. and i have no idea who's gg except for lala. blaaarrrggh. im just one sleepwalking sloth here.

Rei bboyed at 11:56

Friday, June 25, 2004

my dad was so lame today. he was complaining abt the american idol. "its bad enough that they had the american idiot, and singapore just had to come up with their own singapore idiot. its even worse that there is the world idiot. how stupid." i started rolling ard the car laughing the roof off. a bunch of idiots competing for the crown - world idiot. ahahahha that idea tickled me sooo much. ahahahhaha anyways, i watched world idol with my bro on wed. waaaahhhhh... will young was so cute! nnl.. when some country voted him as only the like bottom 3rd, the camera showed him grabbing his face in agony n gg arrgghh. then when another country voted him as the top 3rd, he was like yesss! wahahhahaha so cute. n i dunno why so many countries didnt like alex from poland. i thought she was kinda cool. she has this very rocker chic face.. i like!

and my dad is insisting on bringing the whole family tmr morning to sungei buloh to go bird-watching n fish-watching. i told him he's mad. im not some bloody bird and fish enthusiast that wakes up at 6.30 just to see birds fly n fish swim. -____________-" i told him he can go with mom for a romantic walk with the birds n fish. i hope he takes me seriously.

Rei bboyed at 19:15

Thursday, June 24, 2004

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

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puahahahhaha this is hilarious! guys dont like tomboys! puahahahahhahahahha

Rei bboyed at 13:20

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

went sw with bel for streetjazz. bel told me my hair is sorta blonde -__________-" and my original dye was black -____________-" she said even my eye color looks gray. aish. how to dye back b4 sch starts? T.T anyways, the steps were cool! went home feeling high~

Rei bboyed at 21:26

met ongyan y'day at raffles to practise dance. since lumpy wasnt there yet, we went for dinner first. was nice having dinner with her.. dont wanna say much, ongyan you should know. :) lumpy came and she was hilarious!!!! omg... i laughed so hard i was rolling ard. her actions.. man.. i should have filmed it down.. lumpy, why are you so cute?! ahahahahaha ongyan had to leave after a while, and i stayed on to help lumpy. it was very very productive. she learnt till more than 1min 10s!!!! kei, she's catching up!!! fast learner, our lumpy. woot. gave her my black fuckband. lumpyrox.

then today, went back to sch. was supposed to do art but gloria n yahui didnt want. so i just to help collect cert. took out lumpy's card first. went inside g.o n asked to collect cert.

"ic?"
"here." -pass her lumpy's card-
"hmm....you dont look like the person in the photo."
"no la, its me. you see wrongly."
"but really dont look like you..."
"err... -thinks- thats how i look like w/o specs!"
"but you arent wearing specs here!"
"-looks at photo (lumpy why you didnt wear specs?!)- aiya! -thinks: plan foiled. time for plan b. thanks for your time! bye!"

-__________________-" i was so duaio.

anyways, this is just a random thought, random feeling. you changed so much. maybe im talking abt one person, maybe im talking abt 2, 3, 4, 5 persons. it doesnt matter. all i wanna say is, im disappointed, sad, hurt, angered that you changed. i really dont recognise you at all. the pretty portrait i painted of you is long burned. why keep something, why hold on to something, when its not of value now? when looking at it makes your heart sear with fiery tears? letting go is not easy; among so many gems, i only have a few hope diamonds. i invested so much, so much in those hope diamonds. i nv expect anything to be given back. did you have to devalue yourself back to those gems? or a rock? why be a second-rate version of yourself when you can be a first-rate version of yourself? and of all things, someone had to come in between us. while im the one not minding, you're the one minding everything, including me. d'you really treat me as a close friend? im lucky that i have a few doves bringing me olives every now n then. life is bearable.. but whenever i think of the pretty portrait, it makes even the most optimistic person on earth lose faith in everything one believes in.

Rei bboyed at 14:37

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Your wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."

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ahaha~ so true. dreamer~ dream~ 꿈꿔~ whee

Rei bboyed at 17:09

Sunday, June 20, 2004

saturday*
T.T my parents threw me into the wolves' den!!!!! the bloody tuition place.. it was all guys!!! T.T i was so quiet cox of that. i actually did my work! -rounds of applause- and i heard this guy discussing with his friend that LA is a les? im like huh? since when? i thought it was PL? erbx. then the teacher asked me whether im LA, i said, whats that? the teacher mad one too. started praising me what im concentrating so hard on my work that i didnt even hear them talking.. -__________________-" then my teacher asked me which sch im from. so i said crescent girls'. his face was like 0_0 crescent maths standard very high you know! even higher than nanyang girls! i gave him the o_0 are you serious? face. it was all so weird. i couldnt wait to get out of the prison. and he thought i was an ahlian?!?!?!?!??!?! gawd. of all the pple, ahlians. he said its cox of my hair, quite ahlian. i wanted to stab him with my pen, but started stabbing my paper instead. finally 2 girls came. and one of them thought i looked like her friend's stead. -__________-" i look like everybody larh.

went raffles practise dance. stupid me forgot to bring cd. how to practise?! in the end, vie n me just sang the song. -_________-" but still quite hard. went for breaking with my bro after that. bentley taught new footwork. he came up with a variation of his uprock and it was super cute. grrr. must he be so cute? grrr. then the timing of the song too, he kept missing the beat. then he dunno how to start. grrr. so cute larh. grrr.

then went esply for the erm, i forgot the name. some show where ice cream man and xiaoming was there with the whole music forest dance troupe. xiaowei was actually on the stage dancing! i didnt know she's in mf. weird. ice cream man n xiaoming was teaching some dance from the 5566 n kone mv. totally lame and slow. soooo slow. i was dying from boredom. then!!!!! i noticed this bloody cute guy. tried to take pics but all came out like shit. grrrrr. taught vie a small portion of the footwork n she loved the variation too! whee~ bentley is just so cute. and he came up for the performance for ben yong ltr. totally so cute larh!! he kept forgetting the steps then he was like oops -sticks out tongue- then faster look at pple n catch up. and his expression!!!! super blur. vie n me were laughing so hard n so loud, this grp of pple infront threw us disgusted looks. but we were not laughing at ben yong what!!!!!! ahahahaha even my brother laughed like mad too. it was that funny. bentley should just stick to breaking. its more suitable for him.

sunday*
finally, my hair color is dark now. it was supposed to be black, but it turned out abit brown with abit of abit blonde streaks. y'all understand? ahahahas quite confusing

Rei bboyed at 22:13

Saturday, June 19, 2004

A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven
albums.

Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.

Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.

Your Personality type is the only type that would
like this cool online gothic Game:

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woot. im a certified tomboy. woot.

Rei bboyed at 11:49

whee! went with my parents y'day to some opening launch of some condo called, i think water place? yupp. apparently, my dad got an invitation so we went to see. and it was bloody beautiful. they even have a water polo pool, and a water basketball pool? woot. they even tried mimicking the beach. theres even a aqua aerobics pool! and the children pool has this amazing slide. woot! then the guy taking us ard, allen khong, he made me so happy. hahahahahas he led me to the clubhouse to take a seat while my parents went to get food. so i sat there. then he was looking at me very intensely, and after much consideration, asked.

"are you local?"
"err.. yes."
"really?! you dont look like one!!! your face.. -pats his face- is very special..."
"yarr i know.."
"oh, people also say your not local b4?"
"yupp."
"where do they say you're from?"
"erm, korea?"
"YARR!!! KOREA!!! you're right.. coz say you jap, your face doesnt really look like it, but korea.. yaryar."

-flies to heaven- i was so happy, i was trying very hard not to smile to myself when getting my food, lest pple think im mad. so happy for the rest of the day. then when we were gg off, allen khong's shifu came n chatted with us. then allen khong was introducing my parents to him. then when he came to me, he was telling him in this full-of-amazement voice.

"this is their daughter. she's 17... and can you believe she's a local?!"
"huh?! you mean she's a singaporean?! serious?! dont look like!"
"yarr! her face very special right? -pats his face again-"
"... -shitfu looks at me in amazement-"

flew all the way home.

then read the whole week's newspaper. felt that i was missing out on alot of things and just had to sit down and sift through everything. came across this bloody funny cartoon which had me cracked up for a full 10 minutes.

started reading from ard 11 and finished at 1 plus. my eyes were so tired. packed everything n went back to my room to sleep. on the way, i passed by a mirror. then i glanced into it and went into a coma.

"WHO'S THAT MONSTER WITH PURPLE HAIR?!?!?!"
a moment ltr...
"oh, me."

im dying my hair back tmr.

Rei bboyed at 09:33

Friday, June 18, 2004

ugh. my wisdom tooth hurts. my arm hurts. my legs hurts. my eyes hurt. my head hurts. and my heart hurts. ugggh.

every morning i wake up and get heart attacks looking at my hair in the mirror. im still not used to purple hair and i missed my black hair. i want my black hair back lerh. maybe dying back this sunday? or next mon? yarr.

and i looked at the neoprints we took and i realised my face was so flushed cox i was drinking e33 b4 taking the neoprints. ahahhaha then my face turned pink.

and y'day exams was bloody hard. im sad. i cant get full marks, and i dunno whether i can even get 90 over. bahh. sad now..

Rei bboyed at 09:41

Thursday, June 17, 2004

You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.

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365

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

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yepp ongyan. the wind im the same as you! aahahaha though the soul thing is quite -___-"

Rei bboyed at 11:35

went sch y'day for art. while stupid yahui had the great fengshui seat with all the wind blowing at her, i had the stupid wax air melting my whole body. and there was no maths. make me go class look -________-" my hair wasnt even properly sprayed black.. still could see some purple. liyun said i look like those demon king in cartoons. ahahha i think hari said i look like ultraman? or was it yahui? aish. so sad. art was fun, minus the weather. susan tan was nice, im gonna miss her T.T kachee came down n helped about too.

went home n got friggin pissed with my parents. ughh. went off with ongyan to glass house to celebrate vie's b'day, but i got pissed in the end too. but what right do i have to get pissed about? its not my life... its theirs. kei wanted to go arcade, but ws didnt wanna go so in the end, we went heeren n took neoprints. on the way bought e33, that was why my face was red when the neoprints came out. when gg home with ongyan, i felt so full from drinking so much that i was walking wavy. ongyan said im tipsy. hmm. but i didnt think so. i really felt very full. couldnt walk properly. but i think i was tipsy. hari called while i was on the way home n i was talking in a super slow manner. now that i think of it, i think being tipsy makes me feel lazy. coz its not that i cant talk faster, its because i felt too lazy to talk fast. yeaa.

but good news! i got myself a new girlfriend! ahahahahahaha clarycelumjiawen a.k.a lumpy, lumpinee, maowang[catking], miao. woo we are officially partners while ongyan got hooked up with kei. puahahaha

Rei bboyed at 10:34

Tuesday, June 15, 2004

went to toni n guys y'day with vie. we scissors paper stone to see who go first. it was me.. so i went inside first n sat on the chair feeling dumb. casey came with the color book n asked me what i want. i told her im not sure. so she choose for me. i told her anything. so she bleached my hair first. bloody pain!!!! T.T esp when she make me sit at the hair thing which gives out heat. PAIN!!!! i felt my head melting.. i was sliding lower n lower onto the chair. then i bend my head down.... n she came by n told me to sit up straight. T.T endured for sooo long n finally, was freed from that monster's heat. but she applied more bleach!!! ahhh.. i was like squirming in my side from the pain. T.T after a loooong time, i can finally wash my hair! yayy! then she put another color on my hair as a base color. it was purple-pink, according to vie. but it just look like silvery gray to me. i felt like either my hair looks like it's gotten albino or i just came out of fengyun. woot. then she started putting dye on my hair n the pain came again!!! T.T dying is such a painful process, ahahahhaha pun. emerged looking like.. purple. lol~ no words to describe my hair now. its not those kind of purple which no light is black, but if theres light, its purple that kind. its those kind of really bright purple. but apparently, under no lights, it looks like brown. lol~

casey couldnt do vie's hair n told her to come another day. but she's not free.. so.. i dunno how lerh. hmm. she went home after that then i was like, err, dunno where to go. so called up everybody to see whether anyone's in town.. n finally got yahui! hahaha went ps to find her n she was supposed to treat me to pizza, thats what she said. but in the end, i paid. ahaha stupid girl.. miaoling n erm, this girl.. dunno her name.. she nv intro herself too n i nv ask.. lol~ were there.. then after eating, we took sticky photos! ahahha~ turned out bloody funny. coz i dunno what i was doing n i pasted a photo on top of my face n having no idea how to erase. puahaha funny..

went with them back to crescent cox they told me vanessa was there.. been a loong time since i see her so i might as well go n find her. she was so shocked to see my hair! hahahha left with her n went town cox she pulled me there.. ahahha but she so nice, buy the hairspray for me~ whee~ walked ard town with her b4 gg to take neoprints. went to the shiny booth at cine n send her home. then waited for lala at mrt. went lido with her n she ate macs. went home together after that.. wahahaha i have purple hair. o_0

Rei bboyed at 10:31

Sunday, June 13, 2004

friday*
went to eat dinner with my family at rocky's pizza~ yumyum. it rox! whee~ then went to queensway with my mom to buy chio jeans. i now own one more pair of jeans! yayy~

saturday*
went breaking at raffles again. lumpy came! hahaha we practised our dance n we wanted to try with hats. then no hats. so vie n lumpy put towels on their head while i borrowed luying's helmet! hahahhahaha bloody funny.. we took a vid n laughed like mad over it. break for a while b4 lumpy suddenly came up with an ahbeng movie idea. so it was golden dragon versus green phoenix. lol~ damn stupid. laughed n rolled ard. hahhaa bro was supposed to come for breaking at 5 but he was still at ginza at 4.50. erbx. went town with vie they all in the end. was bugging lumpy abt this song which i heard at cold storage the other day but i cant rmb the title! apparently, she found it familiar too.. yayy. no one knows. greatt.

sunday*
went to see streetfest. was supposed to see music forest, thinking they put up a dance. but it turned out to be a singing one. -__________-" bloody sian. so vie n i took a walk to cine where she ate pasta. wanted to get booze after pasta so we went down. then we heard some band jamming on the stage so we went outside to look first. the first person we saw on the stage holding a bass guitar looked like kh!!!! vie n me stared. he was quite cute! hahahaha he was flirting with the audience too? hahaha played his guitar so seriously then shyly looked up a bit n smile.. -faints- no need to be so cute. argh. finally met pj lol~ n jingfei, one the mcs, came to talk to us since she know pj. when the band finished, i rushed behind with vie to take pic with him. hm, he doesnt look like kh when you're near him.. yea..

was running late for pop is hot competitions so vie, pj n me rushed over there. was enjoying the performance when 3 girls cut in front of us n stood there as if its the right to do so. grr. i was bloody angry. grrr. wanted to tsk them.. but thought better of it. anyway view sucks over there so we moved after pj went off for family dinner. but stand so long my legs was soo tired. n weather was bloody stuffy. argh. vie was tired too so we went heeren to rest. sat on at the fountain there n felt so in heaven. suddenly, this woman approached us.

woman: do y'all live in singapore?
us: yea....
woman: im from toni n guys n would you like to be my hair models?

we were like 0_0 then she say will help us dye for free n bla. so we were thinking like, ok, might as well. hmm. so funkay~ went back to the performance n realised that everybody was smoke generators. woot. in the end, they didnt even announce who won. bah. wasted my time waiting there. hmm.

Rei bboyed at 23:42

Friday, June 11, 2004

Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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this thing reminds me of ongyan. i dunno why. maybe cox sec 2 she was very enthu about greek gods...

Rei bboyed at 18:29

-pounds on floor madly- bloody friendster deleted some of my testimonials!!!!! T.T most of the organisations' testimonials are gone, not that i really care, but vie's new one n ongyan's one got deleted too!!!! T.T whats up with friendster man.. they even deleted alicia's whole profile. erbx.

and ongyan, are you back from jm's house?

Rei bboyed at 09:31

Thursday, June 10, 2004

Letter from murdered Satomi Mitarai's father to his daughter:

Sat-chan. where are you now? Could you meet your mother yet? Where are you playing? The words I spoke that day when I sent you off to school were the last. Sat-chan, you were dashing about like the wind at my side as I took the laundry from the washing machine.

It was a morning exchange any parent would recognise.
"Dont you need your gym clothes?"
"No, I don't."
"Did you forget anything?"
"No."

Your favourite mug, your rice bowl, your soup bowls, your chopsticks and many other things are still here.

But Sat-chan is not here. Why aren't you here? I just don't understand.

Sat-chan. I'm sorry. You don't have to do any chores. Its ok to play. Go on and play. Eat as much candy and ice cream as you want.

so sad -cries- i was crying after i read this in the papers. the father is so sweet! T.T

Rei bboyed at 15:23

im having an influx of weird dreams. is this like the weird dreams season?

i dreamt last night that eric bana was a soccer star. sorta like figo? or zinedine? and in any case, eric bana the soccer star didnt in any ways resemble eric bana the movie star. weird. and i was playing soccer with him in a place resembling tanglin mall 3rd level.

Rei bboyed at 12:48

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

just came back frm hospital after visiting my uncle. he got into a car accident but luckily, not much harm. just his poor car. hahas and he still so happy. he's just plain optimistic man.

Rei bboyed at 21:16

had a really weird dream last night. i dreamt that i was in a car garage with vie n i was telling her danny means 3 dunno what, 2 porsches, n 1 green car. vie was in a car herself n she couldnt hear me. so she walked out of the car, n walked behind me. turns out i had a porsche n vie got into the driver seat n i got into the passenger seat. she started driving round the garage while i sat there, fearing scratches on my beloved car. then suddenly, vie n my car was gone, left me n this guy battling with stones n stone axes. i picked up the stone axes n he scolded me. apparently, im supposed to change into this stone man first b4 battling him. -___________-" then whole scene changed again. i was back at my childhood home, at the table studying maths my my tutor, hiro. -________-" he was patiently teaching me maths n then it was break time. so he went down with me n my mom n we were at my condo already. n my condo had a jap restaurant below where we walked through it with alot of jap pple. and suddenly, my mom disappeared n hiro n me were at an arcade. then scene changed again. i was back at my childhood home, this time with joetsai. he was teaching my some magic. then he wanted to teach me how to fly. so i said ok! for some weird reason, my childhood home was located in the wilderness with this high mountain outside my house n i was supposed to jump from the top n practise flying. so even if i fall, i fall into my swimming pool. so i waited for joetsai at my door. when he finally came, i realised i havent change into my swimming costume. so i ran to my room where i changed n when i came out, joetsai was like why you change into swimming costume? we are not swimming. while explaining why i was changed, my mom suddenly appeared in full swimming costume gear n wanted to go swimming with us. -________________-" it was a waaaay weird dream.

couldnt crawl outta bed today coz weather was soooo nice. its those kind of gg to rain but havent rain yet so got big cold winds. whee~ watched jtl concert. woot! jaewon was fagging throughout the concert!!! -faints- so bloody cute. he poked his cheek! puahaha n woohyuk took his dog out for a walk during one of the songs! so cute!!!! can see popo was bloody happy, she kept wagging her tail. n she was dressed up!!!! all those ribbons n clothes, so cute!!!!! -faints- n evil tony, when woohyuk passed him the leash, tony was singing this high note n he pulled the leash up! i was like ah! poor popo. he looked unhappy with the leash. hahahaha woohyuk took popo back, n when the song ended, he carried popo! so cute! popo was so happy, kept on wagging her tail. ahahhaha so cute! then when the lights went out, woohyuk said "포포, 가자!(let's go, popo)" so cute -dies- n tony cried again. and they played guerilla concert. woohyuk was shaking so much. n stupid jaewon had no tears. hmph. tony was wailing n wailing. felt so sad too. but can understand.. they went through to much. T.T JTL 영원히!

Rei bboyed at 13:22

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

felt so loved when i went back sch. its been such a looong time since i last saw everybody and they all were like "jingwen!!!!" -hugs- i love you guys!

went to raffles mrt n break with kei, luying n vie. it was productive, though alot of weird pple were ard. took vids of ourselves n it was bloody funny! we act busking, then vie donated money, then she steal our tupperware n ran off with luying chasing her. hahahahaha mad one. upload the vids then post! hahaha

Rei bboyed at 10:02

Monday, June 07, 2004

ahhh im dying of happiness. -flies ard room- went grocery shopping n bought so many stuff!!! and i got this panda biscuits from japan which a utterly cute!!! now i dont feel like eating them! T.T why are the pandas so cute?! if only kei is here to translate for me.. also got one tub of ben n jerry's chocolate fudge brownie. all mine. ALL MINE. puahahahaha im a lucky girl~ lucky! -flies-

Rei bboyed at 17:55

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Rei bboyed at 14:58

woow. let my mom listened to rahzel beatboxing my fave song yesterday. she was so amazed! hahas told her that someone my age can do it too, she was even more amazed! so cute hahas

went my uncle's house all the way in tampines. he had this karaoke room which has alll sorts of songs.. except korean ones. its almost the same as kbox! i wonder where he got all those songs man.. anyways, i had such a fun time singing the songs. purposely played linkin park to irritate my dad. hahahas and he was irritated! hahaha so predictable, so cute. hahas then my dad kept on playing those canto songs.. i dunno how to sing so i just sang the chn words. hahaha funfunfun

my dad then drove me to heeren n dropped me off there. saw this biiig scary crowd so i hid at the back entrance of marche. called vie n... saw bishi! puahahahaha what a coincidence. anyways, vie had a clipon hair extension which i was unconsiously eating during the performance. no wonder i was thinking since when is my hair so long.
-_____________-" show was great. i saw a few of those breakers whom i saw at youth park last time. they werent that good at that time, which shows they improved. but for the pple whom i know breaks well, they werent themselves. but they all started brekaing damn good during the friendly battle. whee~ when dharni came up for his peformance, i was wondering why the heck do they need a dj when he's up there. in any case, when they started performing, i didnt even know which is the turntables n which is him. -____-"

when performance ended, we went down to marche to buy food. was starving. i dunno why but i was quite high. hmm. must be the performance~ i was bouncing all the way home from orchard. hahas

Rei bboyed at 10:58

Saturday, June 05, 2004

-_________-" i saw our new art teacher. -_____________-" i was expecting someone with loong flowing hair woman wearing a flowery dress. but she turned out to be a tomboy.
-____________-"

anyways, i was damn happy!!!! my bro finally came breaking with me! whee! was waiting for bel at raffles when i saw someone familiar. i was like eh? isnt that kh? and it was him! i was looking at him like huh? how come you're here. then he saw me too.. so both of us were like ?? hahas so cute. called vie n she told me sani is coming. so i was thinking, cannot be right. since when sani got partner. anyways, bel finally came n my bro n i rushed to sw. and sani didnt come. -________-" fine. and so coincidentally, 3 other newbs came too. my bro got company. turned out the 2 'newbs' actually practised at home b4. one of them even tried to do a flare! woo. so amazed. n my bro forever so shy, so make me go ask kh to do seven for him. -__________-" be brave man. hmm, n kh looks good in towel. whee~ unlike a certain bentley. woot.

went to lau pa sat to eat! cant believe it. ate roti prata. hahas dunno what to eat. bel, vie n lala ordered some really disgusting food? apparently they all didnt finish in the end n started playing with the prawn. hahas then went to practise dance at raffles there n saw the 3 sw girls. i went up n asked whether one of them is jocelyn. no one was. im so gg to kill jayce on tues. lala finally got the dance! hahahaha though no as much as us, i think it was better than her 28 seconds! or was it 36? hmm. hurray for lala! n her handstand is improving. whee~ n i finally got my own 6-steps. whee~ finally T.T -tears of joy-

Rei bboyed at 13:31

Friday, June 04, 2004

-cries- i wanna kill myself. why is there so much work for art?.. n yahui didnt come today. felt so lonely. but susan tan was so nice to help me draw too. -claps hands- i love susantan.

eng comepre course was so boring. i was playing with sally, that cuckoo who suddenly started singing and the teacher wanted to change our place coz she thought we were talking. and that sally was saying "im adamant i was singing n that they were not replying me" ahahhaha anyways, she continued singing after that. so cute..

went to yj house n she wasnt there! luckily her sis at home so she opened the door for me. when she finally came, i gave her a biiig hug. felt so happy. but im still sad. T_____________T lumpy came n we taught her the dance.. managed to learn till quite far. -cheers- hurray for lumpinee! muahaha left with her ard 6 plus n headed home in a mrt. and there was this super cute baby beside her!!!! he/she looked at us n i smiled at him/her.. and he/she smiled back!!!!! so cute!!! omg.. -faints- why are all babies so cute? i played a sorta peek-a-boo game with the baby.. so cute! he/she giggled!!
-faints-

ongyannn.. ongyannn... T.T why? weishenmo? 왜? hmm i like hugging you. you are slightly taller than me. puahahha im addicted. how?! the guy is not even freakin real!

Rei bboyed at 21:04

send someone to love me
i need to rest in arms
keep me safe from harm
in pouring rain
give me endless summer
lord, i fear the cold

ongyan: im running to your hse to hug you

Rei bboyed at 08:40

i was dying in art class y'day. i looked at my huge batik n i wanna start hacking it up. so much work! T.T i did so much until when i took a bus with vie to k class, i was dreaming about lines, dots n more designs. im killing myself with art. but at least susan tan was nice enough to try to ease my pain. she bought us pizza! with drumlets!!! -drools- i love drumlets!! *yumyum. we finished the whole box of choco biscuits susan tan gave us too hahas. n yahui looked like a lobster after tanning at sentosa yday! laughed n laughed. splitted my sides when she suddenly ask me for pad. shes just red..

and im gg crazy. maybe calling woodbridge to reserve a seat. my head is spilling with that song 'If Your Mother Only Knew'. i just love it!!! i even dreamt that while climbing the stairs of a HDB, that song kept playing n replaying till i reached the top. and that comic!!! that so sweet guy... T___________T it gets me so depressed knowing that there wont be someone like him... n i cant possibly have a crush on a bloody comic character! im moping ard... *mopemopemope

Rei bboyed at 08:23

Thursday, June 03, 2004

i just realised rahzel beatboxed the same song as dharni did - the 'If Your Mother Only Knew', my fave song. even got the same lines like 'this is the tricky part'.

Rei bboyed at 11:34

went out with yj y'day to city hall b4 gg back to her house where i read her comics. i can just cry now. bloody sweet. T.T i hate reading this kind of comics!! makes me feel so sad.. coz i know not one guy in the world can be as sweet as the guy n as loyal as the guy in the comic. T.T im gg mad for a few days. dont mind me. argh..

vie came ltr at ard 4 plus since she was near yj hse. practised dance abit n went off at ard 7. went to cine n met lumpy! whee she was wearing adidas like me! totally ostracized vie. hahas saw dharni beatboxing n im dead sure he got the deadfisheyes syndrome like bmw n bentley. n occasionally, ferrari. ahahaha and i was so happy when my fave song came on! whee~ happy day, happy feelings. and when this malay guy came up n sang, i was so 0_0! he had such great voice. wow... took very rox neoprints after that~ seldom come out with lumpy, so i felt extra happy. miss her lots..

woke up this morning still feeling depressed. im still too engrossed in the comic. argh. n now, i missed a few lessons of sch coz of that. T.T i wanna cry. no, not cox of sch, cox of comic. T.T im still waiting for my lamborghini.. which might never come.

Rei bboyed at 09:53

Wednesday, June 02, 2004

i just realised today's a public holiday. so where did my parents go? i cant find them... weird. they cant possibly work today right?.. erm.. right?

Rei bboyed at 10:12

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

watched majah flavah concert. woo~ there was this vertically-challenged guy who beatboxed! and he was eye-popping, mouth-drooling good! i was gaping at him.. how much did i wanted to stand up n shout 'you go man!' but.. i would look stupid doing it alone. ahaha funkeh. i think beatboxers are cool! esp him! even though not much looks, but hey, he must be real good to go with expressions, yo? hahas -flies- beatboxing rox! though i cmi.. ahahaa whee! hope to find out that guy's name soon. he rox my world.

went to see psychiatrist today. on the way at the bouna vista mrt, i was topping up my farecard at the stn ctrl. when i stepped up to that man, i said "can i top up my card?" he looked up... n did a double take. he quickly looked my ez link card, looked at me, n paused. "hey!!! you look like that chn singer! scare me for a moment!" i was like o_0 who? he said he dunno but im betting he meant sun yanzi. -_________-" even my ex-hairdresser says i look like her. where got?!?!?!?! -___________-" people are just blind. then i spent 12 minutes taking the test at IOH. at first, i was very excited coz it was sorta like a computer game where you hit the spacebar everytime an alphabet comes up, except for x, to which i cannot hit. happily, the moment the test began, the alphabets started shooting up the screen. so i was banging on the spacebar rapidly. n on the way, i banged on a few x-es. -_________-" then it went slow mode. got bored. n basically, it just keep repeating the cycle. so after like 5 min? or less than that, i was dozing off. n on 19th june, im supposed to take some IQ test? whee~ i like IQ test.

went with vie to the malay shopping centre n it was raining. so we ran across the road from the bus stop n got to the other side. happily, i ran up on the metal grille cover for the drain, skidded on it, n merrily landed one leg in a bush. whee. vie started laughing like mad hyena n i was just -____________-""

after k class, we ate dinner at cine pasta with bel n keion. passed keion her nippon bear. she loved it! after all, its her homecountry bear! ahaha bel gave me this star sweets n doraemon handkerchief.. which, of course, is not for me since its my brother who loves doraemon. T.T but she gave me the pancake-like thing with the candy floss-like thing. hahas

and btw! anybody who send me email msges, please be reminded not to write your subject title as 'hi' and 'hello'. i have lotsa weird msges from weird people with hi n hello. im nv opening them again. n i will just delete on sight. even though i know your name. thanks..

Rei bboyed at 09:44