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Friday, October 31, 2003

was supposed to meet kyunghee today at 12, but she changed to 1. so i slowly slowly walked to the bus stop, let 2 14 bus pass by me.. even went into the Singapore Visitor's Centre to take some brochures.. went to cine LFS and sat alone. couldnt stand my hunger and ordered food. people were staring at me weirdly.. erbx. felt so alienated. then remembered that i had comics! was happily reading n eating then kyunghee suddenly came up and scare me.. then i was so excited to pass her her stuff that i knocked my cup of ice lemon tea over.. -_-" was so happy to pass her the letter n her presents. :D went with her to pierce her ears... felt so ouch. but i was like so friggin tempted to pierce... went one round and i was still tempted to pierce.. but my beautiful ears!!!! n that kyunghee went to flip the coin.. and i had to pierce. AND I PIERCED!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!! oh man.. i dunno whether im feeling happy or sad now leh.. i feel so yi han.. i got no more chiochio ears liao.. at least now, i can comfort myself that it will close when i dont like it. yea.. but its not the same!! aish!! i dunno!! im happy yet sad! im sad yet happy! aish!!!!!! 몰라요!!!!!!

Rei bboyed at 20:10

Thursday, October 30, 2003

heh. went with tobikun to cine to meet yj.. unexpectedly, vie turns up. suddenly, all the chocolate sundae pie in the world is eaten up by monster. IT'S ALL OUT OF STOCK!!!! HOW CAN THEY DO THIS TO ME?!?!?!??!?!?!?! i hate the supplier. i hate the distributor. i hate the manufacturer. im so craving for chocolate sundae pie. AND AGLIO OLIO!! yacks.

Rei bboyed at 21:26

Wednesday, October 29, 2003

hey.. cow wasnt so bad to me.. haha~ i acted as if i very mature, very responsible.. wahahaha! then he also didnt had anything to say so i happily walked out after only 20 minutes... looked at my report book! so happy.. i couldnt stop grinning.. then i also couldnt help grinning like mad when cow said that looking at my L1R5, i'll be in reap and he's in charge.. then he said got anything come n ask me.. then i thought abt what vie told me.. just laughed in front of him.. hahhaa~ then he said something damn lame. he looked at the teacher's comments about me and said," the teachers commented that you give up easily.... therefore i conclude... you give up easily." im like duaix. obviously. lame or lame.

waited for goon to return me my confiscated hp.. then she nagged at me then told my mom not to give me my hp back blabla.. then i just grinned at her.. i have a hp! hahahhhaa! and she stupidly think i dont have coz its confiscated.. wahahhaha.. so funny.

went to look for a job but was so scared.. blehx. went home in the end. hahahaha~ how la! hahaha~ i like tt will never get a job.. even my mom says forget it. concentrate on studies.. haix. dunno la..

Rei bboyed at 20:34

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

today my dad so cute.. got this cat meowing n meowing so loudly.. was getting on my nerves.. then he came out from his room and actually meowed with the cat?! then i think the cat so happy, meowed even louder.. then my dad meowed with it.. so cute! cannot take it!

now that O's are round the corner, the responsibility of d/l-ing vids has fallen on me. both H.O.T. and Shinhwa... my com is gonna burst..

great. mrs heng just called me. Lord bless me. Im seeing Gau Poh Teck. Lord save me.

Rei bboyed at 19:50

Monday, October 27, 2003

sad. angelia is kicked out. she's going to a neighbourhood school. sad. i can understand what she's going through now. and i feel sad. she said she's feeling fine.. and that she's happy and relieved. im quite glad if she really is happy n relieved. coz it means that my prayer worked. i really hope that everything will go well for angelia, hanjin, pearlynn, janice n erffa. it's really hard leaving your friends and everything familiar. actually, angelia is one of those few pple in the class who, when dont come to sch, g3 doesnt feel like g3. hahaha~ better be proud k angie! hahaha~ anyways, angelia, hanjin, pearlynn, janice n erffa, remember that you always have g3 there with you.. and me! hahaha~ take care k.. God bless

Rei bboyed at 16:16

Friday, October 24, 2003

so fun today! went to clarke quay there with kyunghee, tobikun, vie n yj wanting to go to that Mt. Sorak restaurant.. but they say they open at 6.. so we wandered ard at the arcade there.. the arcade there brought back so many childhood memories!! hahaha~ played some gun game with yj.. called gundullet.. is that how u spell? then went off with kyunghee to play with some kiddy machines to get tickets coz she want... went to this machine where you throw balls into this doll's mouth... the last ball got stuck at the doll's mouth there b4 ending.. then we were like oh no! how! so i walked to the side of the machine and tried to squeeze my hand inside the netting.. but only my fingers got through and i started wriggling them.. kyunghee laughed like mad.. then she went to try with the 13 tix we won.. the tix cannot reach then she wriggled it too.. hahhaa~ damn funny! i nearly wanted to use the chair but it would look like im trying to spoil the machine... hahahaha~ played lotsa tix games.. damn fun! got one is hit the duck one.. so lame... the hammer take like 5 seconds to respond one lor.. lag like me.. my machine man.. hahaha~ then played the strength game where you take the hammer n hit this thing to judge your strength.. kyunghee wanted to play so i pressed girl then age is below 4.. hahahhaha~ then like nothing happen.. so isa wanted to hit.. then i suddenly noticed this button that said wait.. so i told her to wait.. then she posed there for very long.. then suddenly ticket came out.. hahahhaha!!! 4 tix summo.. so played again.. this time she hit n hit n hit.. 3 tix came out.. hahahhaha!! damn funny!!! hahahhaa~ went on to the crocodile game.. each of us to one croc.. hahah~ very fun!! went on to the flintstones memory game.. we won like 60 plus tix from there!! hahahaha!!! on our way to redeem something from the counter with our tix, we passed by this guy playing this machine with a whole stack of tickets beneath him.. yacks. so cheat one... while redeeming these very cute packets of tissue n stickers for the 5 of us, this guy came with his wife n kid in tow putting like 3-4 bundled tix... man.. one bundle got like 500 plus tix! nnl!!! we were like 0_0! haha~

walked ard clarke quay till we came by the river there n sat down at the ledge.. waved madly to the tourists on the bumboats.. hahaha~ they must think singaporeans are a friendly bunch.. or a mad bunch. hahhaha~ there was this tourist.. damn funny though.. hahah~ coz got 2 bumboats mah.. one in front of another.. we waved madly to the first bumboat where this ang moh enthusiastically waved to us.. then this asian tourist on the 2nd bumboat saw us waving.. he gathered his kids n told them to wave.. then b4 we even waved at the 2nd bumboat, he was furiously waving at us! hahahhahahaa!!!! sat there and talked all the crap in the world b4 going back to Mt. Sorak for dinner..

i was abit intimidated coz there was this whole bunch of waiters n waitresses at the door there dunno doing what.. standing together in a bunch.. chose this nice krn setting.. we all sat down and ordered our food.. i got some seafood pancakes n yj kimchi ramyon.. i think vie got bi bim bab.. the appetizers came first.. most of it were quite spicy.. but there was plate of veggies which was very very nice.. and this potato salad. then the nice n friendly lady boss came n helped us arrange our shoes.. haha~ kimchi ramyon was very nice... bi bim bab too!!! the pancake rocks!!! we just kept eating n eating.. must be the food or what.. we were getting quite high~ hahaha~ laughed like mad n yak like mad.. the dessert came and it tasted funny to me.. everyone thought it was nice.. but i dont really like plum i guess.. tasted like medicine? hahahha~ but i drank it all.. it was sweet n funny at the same time.. hahahha~ when we were about to pay, the boss came n spoke to me.. so friendly! hahaha~ he asked me how was the food and whether it was my first time eating.. haha~ so friendly! wahahahhaah! i love mt. sorak! we decided to go back!! next time, we will be eating the live octopus! yea! wahahhahahahaha!!

Rei bboyed at 21:18

Thursday, October 23, 2003

Yay!! im upgraded!! for the 2nd time in my entire crescent life, im seeing form teachers!! hahaha~ I upgraded from 2 years of principal to HOD at this mid-yrs and now... form teachers!!!! i stil rmb last year i was wondering how the heck can people get results to see form teacher one lor.. and i everytime had to see p.. now.. man.. how much i improved!! so happy for myself!!!! im currently pestering my dad for new hp, preferably samsung's flipflip phone, LG new phone, or nokia n-gage. yea! hahaha~ i think my dad is considering? hahaha~ not bad man! wahahahhaha! so happy!!!

was supposed to hang out today with vie, tobikun n kyunghee. but they left the moment we got down 111. hahaha~ LMAO.. we were so amazed when we saw 3 pple queueing up for the Zhang Shanwei autograph session.. and it's held tmr. erbx. bit the early la huh. when vie n tobikun left, kyunghee n me shopped ard orchard. went to heeren and i saw so many chiochio clothes!!!! im proudly a fan of converse now.. hahhaaha~ i got like so many clothes to buy there!!! and there was this damn chi bag i saw at converse.. only 46?! man.. im gonna get it.. and there was this tattered sweater that was very nice too.. aish. so broke but so many nice things. then went to basic beauty with kyunghee. she started trying all the makeup stuff there.. tried on my hand summo.. yacks. my hand was full of glitter.. then she painted my thumbnail with some glitter nail polish.. yacks. i have no nail polish remover!!! yacks!!!

went to kyunghee's home coz i wanted to watch K1 mv.. but i dont have vcr.. then couldnt borrow her tape to watch.. haha~ she so nice~ cook for me some thai rice to go with some salty egg.. hahahha~ and she bought for me ice cream! yay! 사랑해요, 친구야!!!!! hahaha~ k1 was great! the dance! hahaha~ man.. they are so much better than energy!!! then watched outside castle mv too.. damn nice!! the breakdance!!! woah!! H.O.T 짱!!!!! then isa showed me the H.O.T concert vcd the 우혁 drama n 희준 drama.. 우혁의 drama was funny.. but 희준의 drama was quite sad.. i hate that girl from M.I.L.K.. yacks. cant even act. yacks. summo so bitchy. yacks. actually left 희준... @#*! then saw 희준 concert performance.. quite funny actually! hahahhaa~ there was this dance step quite stupid.. but he do nice la.. but if we do we look like shit.. hahhaha~ but so sad, had to leave coz my family was waiting for me at BKP.. ran there anad ate krn food.. yumyum! bulgogi! *sings - 나비! shalalala! its so nice to be 나비! shalalalala! everybody should be 나비! shalala!*

Rei bboyed at 21:59

Wednesday, October 22, 2003

ok.. overalls out. im promoted!!! yea!!! but it means i have to work hard? haix.. O's next year...

was looking through K1 news.. realised that they are something like shinhwa.. picked through thousands of people and going through mo gui xun lian.. waking up at 8, 3 hours of physical exercise, after breakfast they have 4-5 hours of dance practice until dinner. at night, they will be doing their own activites which the companies arranged for them like chinese kungfu, open-air concerts, shows and dramas. the only time when they are free to do what they want is at 12 midnite. So as to digest what they learnt and meet their dance teacher's requirements, they practise with themselves till 3-4 in the morning. then wake up at 8 and begin the whole routine again. then another thing similar to shinhwa is that they are sorta like a uniform group, wearing the same clothes n all. and their dance is utter rock man! they are damn qi lor.. and all of them have that air around them.. woah. compare our dance n theirs, ours is like p-skool standard. maybe even kindergarden? hahahhaa~

i was thinking about 동화when i saw that.. 나 wouldnt mind going through all those training man... 나
would put in all 나의 effort!!! 나 know 동화will work hard too! so let's all work towards that!!!! 동화, 화이팅!!!!!!!

btw, shuhui sent me this email about some name thing.. something like fortune-telling? hahaha~ check it out. http://miva.zodiacal.com/acro.mv

Chan:

You are a quick study, and can be self-taught. Your curiosity can get the best of you, but you must learn to concentrate. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind.

Jing:

You have a love of travel and adventure, and you enjoy sports. You also have a very strong sense of fair play and want justice. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr. You are a hard worker when you make up your mind to do a job.

Wen:

Take advantage of all opportunities. You must develop your creativity and talents. You are determined to prove yourself to others. You can be quite inventive and quite curious. You must learn to give 'wise' service and not be a martyr.

Rei bboyed at 09:16

Tuesday, October 21, 2003

K1 ROCKS!!! IM A K1 FAN!!! TENSION, ENERGY, F4, COMIC BOYZ, 5566!!!!!!! WATCH OUT!!!!! HERE COMES K1!!!!!! THEY WILL KNOCK YOUR BREATH, YOUR LIFE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! K ONE! THEY ARE THE NEW GENERATION OF FERrARI!!!!!!!!!!! HORSE-POWER 1,000,000!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHHAA!!!!! AND THEY ARE GONNA TRAMPLE ALL THE OTHER BOYBANDS!!!!!!!!! COZ THEY ARE THE ONE! K=FIGHT; ONE=THE ONLY. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! YO ROCK TO THE BEAT! YO DANCE TO THE FUNK! YO! YO! YO!!!!!!!

Rei bboyed at 18:56

Monday, October 20, 2003

yacks. i had a funneh dream last night. quite gross actually. apparently, that aaron phua is traumatising me. i dreamt that me, yj n dunno who were on the 2nd level of a bus.. and we were standing. all ard us were guys in white uniforms.. and all of them had the aaron phua face!!! yacks!!! then i think i was sighing or dunno what la huh.. i made some funny noise like that time isa did in queensway.. 3 times summo.. then the guys ard us were looking at me funneh then i paiseh so i was laughing n hiding behind yj back then i saw my bus 14. ran down from the second level to the first and the first level pple are all aaron phua too. yacks. then the scene changed to my home. i was packing my stuff in the morning then ws n aaron phua was there too. but ws n aaron phua were apparently got yi tui. turns out that ws last time got come to my hse with aaron phua b4 and ws was suppose to wear this sexy outfit for massaging by aaron phua but she paiseh. so now she was supposed to massage aaron phua in that sexy outfit. and somehow, they managed to squeeze in that small corner outside my door adjacent to my parents' door and aaron phua started moaning damn loud. yacks. woke up feeling all grossed out.

anyways, got back my results. i think i can get promoted.. but.. i feel sad knowing that there will be pple in g3 who will get retained or kicked out. i feel for them man... dunno what to say to angelia.. i felt sad when she cried.. n i felt bad that i passed and she otherwise. i prayed for her though. while she was crying in the hall. all i know fully well now is that God has His plan for her... and it will be for the best. anyways, results are here! (hahaha~ reminds me of the "stingray is here!")

literature: 41 E8
science (phy-chem): 20 F9
english: 62.7 B4
combined humanites (hist, ss): 51 C6
maths: 33 F9
art: 61.8 B4
chinese: 71 A2

not bad la.. considering last year i did worse.. now im worried is that my mid-yr marks might pull down my finals. coz art i rmb getting F9... then combined humanities i forgot what i got.. thats why i super worried now.. and im quite angry abt chn.. fell short of my target.. haix.. but not bad la.. still A..

haha~ jingwen is guai girl k. she went home immediately after school. hahhahaahaha~ my mom got quite a shock seeing me walk through the door.. she thought it was my brother... hahahhaa~

and mel is coming back on dec 12! yay! cant wait to see her!!! *waltzes off to merryland*

Rei bboyed at 13:25

Sunday, October 19, 2003

yesterday was so much fun! i met yj at jurong west then went to choa chu kang to take LRT to segar then LRT was so cool! the screen blanked when we passed by HDBs!!!! then it cleared again when no more HDBs are in front.. so cool right? i was so fascinated!!!! then managed to reach segar then met vie. she said i was a nuisance when yj told her i was wow-ing at the screen.

reached tobikun's house. rushed in to watch heaven's coins and the girl was super chio!!!! the guy looked like the girl too! hahahaha~ then the guy was super funny.. coz he was nervous that the girl was staying at his house then he was like trying to make her n himself comfortable.. so he started blabbering.. saying what ah!! i bought new cds!! you wanna listen? then ran to the living rm b4 pausing, then turned ard. "oops. i forgot you cant hear.." hahahhahaa!!! laughed till got abs! then peeled eggs for tobikun b4 trying to help prepare the steamboat.. but wasnt doing much help so i went back to the living rm. then lumpy came with her 2 watermelons.. hahahaha~ she came and told me that her hands are shivering coz of the watermelons' weight. hahhaha~.. then ws n her aaron phua came.. we were like erbx. managed to prepare everything and settled down to eat coz lumpy need to go off at 6. ate n ate n made lotsa stupid jokes. we now got a new teletubbies techno song! ahahahahaa~ combining tobikun's song n the shinhwa versh! hahhaha! then adelene came soon after we were finishing...

we rested then started watching tv.. dunno ws or aaron phua came up a very good idea of truth or dare. so fun. vie got truth n dunno who also kena b4 aaron phua kena. that was when we decided to play double dare so he had to do double dare. but no one was really interested so the game disperse with ws, aaron phua n adelene playing cards while me, yj, vie n lumpy play suck n blow... then isa called yj n she asked us to go down n pick her up. since lumpy was going off too, we went down together... came up with isa then forgot what we do. we sat down after a while with vie's sorta wine n sprite.. and played some card game where you take this card which you cannot see and put it on ur forehead for everybody to see. if you see other people's card is very small, you add the drinks inside. but if u feel your card is small, you dont add la, but you'll still drink the drink. i kena damn lotsa times, n isa too. ws she dirnk abit her face all red. then we took out carlsberg or was it heinekin? dunno la huh.. some beer.. then we added tt too.. wah.. then lynne came with her 2 bottles of carlsberg... we took one bottle and played with that too.. by the end arh, my face all pink... isa's one too.. hahahha~ i tink i got abit tipsy.. not drunk but tipsy.. everyone said i was very high. they all said my voice was damn teh.. and my reaction even slower than usual. i felt quite heavy la.. thats why my reaction was slow.. but i could walk in a straight line! really! so i was not drunk! just tipsy.. yea.. played truth or dare again.. this time, aaron phua gone liao.. ws got truth and adelene asked her whether she got someone she liked now anot. she said yes. then vie got truth. got nothing to ask her so asked her some crap q. i asked her if she were les and she had to be with someone within our group, who would she go with? she was laughing n laughing then she pointed at me and said you la! 2 drunkards together! hahahaha~ then it was adelene's turn to get truth then i just anyhow asked her since i dunno what to ask. i asked her btwn moses lim n kangkang, who would she choose to marry? she chose kangkang. then it was ws turn to get a dare. we made her take off her bra, bite it n pose this sexy pose for us! hahahaha!

then we moved to tobikun's room since got aircon.. dunno what we do also.. rolled ard the place n play.. i think vie was getting tipsy too.. she was hugging this pillow and laughing in the kiddy laughter.. isa too. she opened the window and started singing to the whole world. then we took pics and adelene left. isa was on the bed while me, on the floor. then her leg was dangling beside me and i hugged it. i actually wanted to hug her on friday and tell her i really appreciate the letter and thank you.. but i didnt noe how to say.. so i hugged her leg without saying anything.. then i started crying.. i tink being tipsy made me abit emtional.. i was crying n crying.. crying over them leaving, crying over them not being in crez next year, crying over how much i will miss them, crying over the empty place in my heart, crying over knowing that things might not be the same as ever, crying alot of things. how i wish i can fastforward the time, so that i can be with them... at least to my dream, it will. coz of donghwa. all i can hope n pray is that we will hold on to the same dream n ideals that bound us together in the first place.. all i can wish for is that we can be as close as ever even if they go on to new schools or places. that is all i can wish n pray for. donghwa, i just want you all to know that im praying for you all everyday, for you, for us, for our dream. you all take care... and rmb that i always love you all... in the darkest shadows of your life, i will be there, to help you, to be there with you.

Rei bboyed at 10:37

Friday, October 17, 2003

yacks. clara tan got me so excited about the travelling concerts, only to have it turn out that we're gg to perform at p-skools as a marketing device so as p-skool people will choose crescent because of the funky people here... yacks. then maybe we'll get to perform at public places too.. but not sure what kind of public concert they are holding la huh.. erbx. nnl.

anyways, isa gave me a letter saying alot of things.. i teared la.. but didnt cry.. the canteen didnt had the atmosphere.. hahahha~ but i was quite touched by the contents.. there was this sentence "If at any point of timei've hurt you or not been a good 친구..용서해! Just wanna tell you also that you've been a great friend even also when i'm down. 고마워! :)" i thought of last time, very long ago, that me, isa n yj were at the canteen coz we just finished history at the monet at ard 3.30. then we havent eaten any lunch so we were damn hungry. i rmb isa said alot of things making me quite mad. then she also flicked some rice on me. i got angry and scooped the remaining rice on my plate and threw it at her back. hahahaha~ come to think of it, its quite funny.. that was the only incident which i rmb that me n her sorta fight.. yea... isa, do u rmb any? hahahaha~ then farewell assembly didnt really cry like i expected to. played with isa, vie behind and amy keep making funny comments.. hahahhaa~ went back to class then wanted to go to s3 but sharon goh n mdm lim were there.. so i didnt dare to go in.. waited till 1.30 then i went past n they were still there. hanjin, who was standing outside asked me to help her tell sophie abt the house capt meeting.. then i saw aisha going in so i went in too.. passed sophie the msg then i sat on a chair. suddenly yj came over and grabbed me by the hands and started telling me what she will miss me next year and that she will try to come back everyday to see me.. then saying alot of things.. i just started crying la.. stupid woman. made me cry. cry n cry. then she hugged me. i cried even more. and the tears just couldnt stop. i actually cried even more when donghwa all started coming ard me and comforting me. i couldnt take it and i sat down, my tears like dam like that. keep gushing out. my hands were all water lor. then nora came and i heard her say "i understand how u feel.. i've been there before..." it just made me cry even more.. though i dunno how is that possible since i was crying like mad cow. managed to cool down after a long while though i was still tearing.. took some lame pics.. hahaha~ then ws keep saying "aey! ssc arh! ssc!" hahha~

in the end we zao off to ssc to book the table.. then went to fish n co to eat.. decided tt we werent going back to ssc to play.. so we waited there for our seafood platter, one fish n chips, one calamarie, 7 drinks n one mushrm soup. kaox. i can just die of hunger there. the service was super slow!!! then donghwa kept making jokes that the restaurant was mine blabla... i was so mad when the drinks n soup came 30 min ltr.. what kind of service was that?! waited more than 50 min for our food to come.. i could just die.. vie was starving like hell.. hahahaha~ dried corpse.. tt was what she described herself.. hahhaha~ but the food was nice la.. just that i would only go back when im full so that i can have an hour to digest my food n not feel hungry.. hahaha~

went outside the LOVE sculpture n took lame pics.. then assumption english were having some orientation.. they were shouting cheers in front of the LOVE sculpture which meant they were shouting directly in front of us.. hahaha~ then we cheered for them everytime a grp finished their cheers.. hahhaha~ damn funny.. went home with vie after that.

reached home n decided that i badly needed a haircut. went to clementi with my dad since he needed a haircut too. went to QB that funky hairdresser Kelly Boon.. she rocks! im now officially in her fan club. hahah~ who wanna join?

Rei bboyed at 08:31

Thursday, October 16, 2003

yacks. had to go little india after all. made me run all over the place only to have aw ailing apologising to me.. ended up helping yahui to translate janghyuk's album.. haha~ quite fun! hahaha~ went to look ard at buildings then they let us go off to eat.. i was doing my translation so i just blindly followed some backs then ended up with angelia, sally n bimbo clique. halfway, angelia, sally n nicole went the other way. then bimbo clique followed. left with vanji, thane, yasmeen n wendy. went to some dunno what indian fastfood place n sat down. the whole world started appearing there.. and thanks to sally, most of them ordered the same food. everyone said that food was nice except for angelia. she kept complaining.. until she discovered that it went well with sugar. haha~ she bought this choco ice cream which tasted funny but hari thought it tasted good so angelia gave her.. haha~ i think the whole food thing was damn funny.. went back to crez on the bus and bloodster started bombing. damn fun!! i love saying malu malu malu! hahhahaha! i think our tour guide, mr singh, was damn amused.. hahhahahhaa

got back to class n they all started sewing the quilt.. dunno how to sew so i cut the cloth.. then got damn bored so i just picked up a few cloths n tried to stitch.. yacks. sewed wrong. scolded by the great thane who sewed alot of pieces of cloths together.. smart la! haiya! dont wanna sew liao...

then arh, so many people say my face la! first the stupid dentist with her "generalised acne", then some unknown friend of yasmeen's also said.. then vanji! i had to take out my mask from under my table n hide it.. feel so zi bei!!!! then even my dad told me to faster go to the car to get some cold air coz he said my face exploded from the heat! so funneh. yacks. decided tt i shall go back to nsc...

went to cine LJ coz vie had a craving. died when the woman there at LJ told me no more choc sundae pie. then went up again later to buy combo1. they told me no crumbs to add!! i died again. all the things i love abt LJ all dont have!! bought pie form BK anyway.. but still no crumbs! sad la! then we rotted there and made a lot of jokes.. laugh till got abs.. hahhaha~ i think we all got ear problems.. hear funneh things all the time.. like yj heard tobikun said her brother bought her bras when its actually her mother. then me i heard tobikun said she wanna buy invincible bra when she meant invisible! hahhahahhahahah!!!! laughed till i got 10-packs la!! hahahha! then the pump air also.. dunno what they say until i thought i heard them say breasts are made of air! hahhahahahhaha!! cannot take it.. end of 2003 i will have100-packs liao.

then tmr farewell assembly.. pple asked me whether i will cry. i think i will. im not sure. coz i dont like crying in front of thousands of people.. and the whole sec 3 will be there.. so.. i dunno.. but i know its gonna make me feel sad.. maybe i should pon.. dunno la..

Rei bboyed at 20:56

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

ok jw u better dun delete the prev post. hahaha now i specially update another one so dat u can edit dis. :P

haha~ ok.. fine.. thanks arh ws! haha~ my brother la.. exams liao keep playing com.. my mom had to confiscate the power cord then i also cannot play! #@!* yucks.

anyways, i wanna thank hari, ws, yj and people who helped me with my art yesterday.. esp angelia n jiamin. they helped me alot with my art, even specially staying back coz of me to help me do.. thanks to these people, i managed to finish 5 out of 8 boards.. thank you. :)

went out with tobikun, yj, vie, kyunghee n ws. since tobikun was on a budget, we went to cine kfc. the place there, like what ws said, zhen de bu hao zhuo. hahhahaa~ left for marche after tobikun finish eating.. ate sambal stingray again.. haha~ then we did the hp stingray is here! hahhahaah~ damn funny.. i got a chocolate ice cream loaded with choco syrup and choco rice. i had such a craving. haha~ vie ordered a huge lump of mash potato, yj mushroom soup n tobikun waffle. then ws ordered another round of sambal stingray since me n tobikun didnt get to eat the first round. i nearly died. it was damn spicy. but the stingray was nice. but it was really spicy. i couldnt take it n i ran off to get a big helping of choco rice n raisins since tobikun wanted it and tobikun got honey n cinnamon sugar. gulped down yj mushroom soup n ws pepsi in a bid to calm my raging tongue. drank water too. didnt help much la huh.. but managed to cool down after a really long while. next time i'll be smarter. i shall eat sambal stingray first then ice cream.

Rei bboyed at 22:23

(: (: (: heh heh i'm ws. jus helping jw to type sumting here cus she asked me to (:

Rei bboyed at 22:19

Tuesday, October 14, 2003

morning was ruined by rabia. at first it was fine when she msged me she got something to ask me. so i smsed back what? then happily, she keep saying what she shy to ask she shy to ask.. i had to keep sms-ing her back what is it tt she wanna ask. Kept on saying she shy again. i just lost patience and told her off. i hate it when people got something to say but dont wanna say. tell you already still keep dragging their feet. then now she come and say what shes not a puppet for me to abuse. say what i also beat ard the bush with her too n what pot calling the kettle black la huh. whatever lor. its not only her that i lost my patience on this kinda stuff right? cheap. you aks hari. when she wanna tell me something then changed her mind immd, i told her to cut the crap and just say lor. she think the whole world got problem with her huh? early in the morning doing this kinda sa jiao thing. yucks.

anyways, went to school n managed to finish painting my batik. left my waxing only. plus my 6 boards. erbx. n im supposed to pass everything up tmr. so smart..

then went out with tobikun, vie n kyunghee again. wanted to go popular then go home one but tobikun was hungry. so we went lido eat first. while walking there, we past by the DFS Galleria and were crossing the road. suddenly this mega huge tour bus appeared and the funniest thing happened! vie n tobikun hugged each other and went "ahhhhhh!!!!" hahhaahah!!! their expression n action was super funny!!! hahahhahahhhaha!!!! they actually grabbed each other's arms! hahhahahhaa!!!!! laughed till i wanna die! hahahhahahaha!!!

went to popular after eating then went home with vie. when i reached home, i called yj coz she was msging me on the bus and even called me but as u know, my hp cocked one. managed to talk things out in the end.. haha~ *relieved* we were both happy at the end la.. haha~ so i guess things are fine now.. we agreed not to let this kinda things to come between us again.. coz its quite stupid to argue over such things. im right on the dreamer side n she's right on her practical side. hahaha~ yea! *rolls ard the floor in happiness*

and i really think my face is rotting. so many pimples!!! 왜?!?!?!?!?!?! 어떻게?!?!??!?!?!?!?! *attempts to hide her pimples* maybe i should wear a sars mask?

Rei bboyed at 19:55

Monday, October 13, 2003

went to art today.. so guai.. some more woke up at 7.15 lor.. did art for a while b4 i went for recess and saw vie, kyunghee n tobikun. felt so happy to see them. ahahha~ then we talked.. then they asked me how's things with yj.. i said just as bad.. then they went for class.

i went back to the art room.. decided to msg yj to apologise la.. coz i noe she wont do it.. no pt throwing 4 years of frenship down the drain.. msged n msged.. in the end her replies got very bad. it was almost to the point that she was insulting my intelligence, say what pple wont look up to me if i dont finish my studies. if pple are like that, they are ignorant n shallow. thats all i can say abt pple like that. called her on my spoilt hp telling her to go online since i got too many things to tell her. went to the monet and on the com n all. in the end she msged me to tell me that she cant go online. so i was like fine, i'll call her then. wanted to go out of the monet but found out i was locked inside! hahahhaha~ felt so malu.. hahaha~ in the end msged suzie to get me outta there.. hahahha~ so funny.. i could her voice calling for the servant to open the door.. hahaha~ felt so stupid can! hahhaha~

managed to get outta the room and i went to the canteen to call yj.. made matters worse only. she said alot of things about my studies. kept on insisting she was right. not say i wanna say, but her thinking is quite typical singaporean - you'll never get anywhere without your studies. even if you're good in arts, languages, music, bla, no use. the moment you dont finish school, you're just a failure n a loser. that was what made me damn angry. i hate people for thinking this way and she actually thought this way. I know of a genius, IQ 160 plus, he was a school dropout. Does that make him a loser n a failure? is he stupid? he just could not cope in school. it was just not the place for him. like what i said in my previous entry, people's brains are developed differently. im happy for her that she can understand maths n science concepts better than me; im happy for her that she can sit down and have the patience to practise them.. coz for me, its very difficult as i cannot sit down n study. its very hard for me to understand maths n science concepts too. pple take one hour i take 10 years. when she kept on insisting, i couldnt take it. i just cried. i told her how i went through sec 3 life this year. why was it so hard for me to study. she didnt care. she didnt even put herself in my situation. you know what i dreamt of last night? i dreamt that she n kyunghee retained with me. and that yj inside my dream was sensitive coz she knew what i was going through. she understood. but in real life, she didnt think. she didnt think how she would go through the whole retaining thing mentally. I told her everytime i step into the g3, im reminded of s3. everytime i do something, im reminded of s3. everything reminds of s3. my parents arent very happy too. at home, at school im faced with my problems. you think im happy? not say now also my parents are very nice now. but i know how to handle my feelungs better than the first half of the year. i told her i was so deep in depression that i attempted suicide. im sorry i told her. im sorry that the whole conversation even happened. coz she broke my heart. she told me i can go die now too. i can go kill myself now too. a close friend of 4 years tell me to go and die now. do u know how hurt i was? she also said what im acting pitiful to get people's sympathy. if i really am, why am i not calling kyunghee, vie or her oer anybody else everyday n cry? why? u tink i love to have the whole world pitying me? i cry to myself. if i cry to people so many times, people would think im aa-ing. i only cried like 2 or 3 times in front of them. 2 or 3 times is called aa-ing? 2 or 3 times is called trying to buy people's sympathy for my pathetic cause? i dont want people's sympathy, all i want is empathy. i just want people to be more empathatic about me retaining and try to be sensitive about it. that is all i asked. but is she? is she sensitive? it is fine if she has her priorities which is like extremely different from mine. she dont have to force her ideals to me. im sorry that i didnt know she had her priorities. all along, i just thought that she was enthu about donghwa. coz she had always sounded enthu. she always dream with us. that was why i thought she will put in the effort. but i thought wrong and i had already apologised to her. im sorry yj, if you're reading this. for you, donghwa is an option. but for me, its a must. forgive me that i didnt know you had your priorities and therefore, cant put in the effort yet i wanted you to pick up some instruments. it was my fault for not even making clear. but now i know and now u know. i am dead serious about donghwa. and you have your priorities. so we just drop it. just drop it. drop the studies thing too. i have my backout even if i really do drop outta school and like what you said, cannot find any job coz i didnt finish school. its no use arguing with you when both of us feel that we are correct, since we stand on 2 extreme ends - practical n realistic vs dreamer.

anyways, went to cine yoshi to eat with tobikun, kyunghee n vie. sat there till 4.45 plus and i took 190 with kyunghee to choa chu kang to meet andrea, hanjing, xuemin n candice. we ran for the 190 bus and vie msged me to tell me that we look very funny from behind when we were chasing the bus... hahhahaha~ i think so too! hahhahaha~ celebrated mingjiao's b'day at andrea house and went home very early coz my mom didnt receive my msg that i wasnt coming home n she bought me food then she angry... haha~ funny la..

oh yea, i wrote a letter for donghwa too.. hahaha~ felt so malu when vie read it out.. im not really used to me writing such mushy stuff.. yucks.. hahhaha~ i feel chongmal isang.. hahhaa~ :)

Rei bboyed at 21:40

Sunday, October 12, 2003

ermx. just saw the j/k pop jam vid. felt bit the ermx. decided that maybe hiphop is better? ahahahaha~ see how la.. its quite cheap really. 100 bucks for 3 months for 10 classes. then 20 for membership. so.. i guess its fine.. im retaking up piano too so well, at least all these will keep me busy.. am thinking of getting a job.. seems fun.. i've nv worked b4.. who can recommend me a good job? hahaha~

i think im hu si luan xianging again but i feel that ì˜Œ ì§• isnt as encouraging.. you know i this kind of pple need a whole lotta encouragements one.. then she like.. i dunno la huh.. so not encouraging then im left here abit the torn la huh.. then she said alot of things abt ë�™ í™” which i felt hurt too.. ë�™ í™” is not an option for me. its a must. im very serious about it, and i really mean very. i suck at studies and am only good in music. and it just hurt when ë„ˆ ì�˜ ì¹œ êµ¬ dont understand your feelings and how hard is it to understand science. not to be bhb or what, but i pick up music much faster. for me is i believe that everyone has their own talents and their own unique brain. some can understand a concept much faster than other pple coz the way their brains are developed. for other pple, it takes a much much longer time to even grasp the basic idea of a concept. admittedly, i cant understand science at all. chem n phy is just so hard to understand. that time ë‚˜ ì�˜ ì¹œ êµ¬ spent one whole day trying to teach me physics that frequency and the dunno what other table la huh.. i still cant understand, proving my brain is really slow. dunno la huh.. so many things left unsaid and unsolved.. bring out too much will only wreck it further.. i just wanna say that im very serious. really very serious. i dont care whether other pple dont take me seriously or not, but i hope ë‚˜ ì�˜ ì¹œ êµ¬ will take me seriously.. thats all i hope..

ì•„ ë§ˆ, ë‚˜ ë³´ ë‹¤ ë�™ í™” ëŠ” í•„. ëª°ë�¼ ìš”. í•˜ ëŠ� ë‹˜, ë�• íƒ�.

Rei bboyed at 16:10

Saturday, October 11, 2003

went to school today at 11 plus.. suzie went outta sch to have lunch, and yj msged me to tell me she's in class. so i went class and played there till 1 plus b4 me, her, ws, vie, kyunghee n tobikun went to cine to eat pastamania. kaox. there was a huge traffic jam at orchard there and to make matters worse, the 111 bus was like soooo damn hot. its not even air-con. me n kyunghee decided to get off at the lucky plaza stop while the rest decided they wanted to get off at the centrepoint there bus stop.. when kyunghee n me got off the bus, we felt so cold?! hahahahahaha~ walked and walked... then we looked back and were like wah! 111 was very far behind us. walked by this roadshow on some mineral water and they were giving out balloons. then me, kyunghee and ws act cute la huh.. took 6 balloons from the woman.. hahahaha~ went to pastamania there wait for them.. they came with 3 balloons?! hahahaha~ damn funny..

was actually feeling quite sad after yj suddenly mentioned farewell assembly..sad all the way till 111 bus.. yea.. wrote another poem. erm.. but i dont think i will type it here.. im damn scared pple will copy or laugh at it.. hahaha~ like what happened to someone.. haha

Rei bboyed at 22:39

Friday, October 10, 2003

kept worrying over my art today.. stayed up till 2 to do my first 2 pages.. went school feeling so dreaded. managed to do my graphics at school, all thanks to hari, candice, hanjin mingjiao! haha~ thanks arh! without those pple, i wouldnt have completed so many.. 대 단 히 고 맙 습 니 다!!!(btw, for pple who cant see the korean words, please change your encoding to either unicode or korean) was gluing and i realised that actually, in my history of crescent except for last year, i had always did my art the last minute and always, my classmates will be helping me. sec one was like that. sec 2 also was like that. its actually thanks to them that i've been able to finish my art on time. once again, 대 단 히 고 맙 습 니 다.. it means thank you very much. although i did not finish my layout, at least i had passed up 4 pieces with my finished piece.. mid yr no one helped me with my art.. i passed up only 2 completed prep work with my graphics page half done and unfinished piece. Now, with the help of my classmates, i managed to hand up 4 pieces. 대 단 히 고 맙 습 니 다!!! bloody gang and hahahabourfronthahamac-gangsters 짱!!! haha~

then today for most of the day till like 4 plus was feeling quite sad.. coz vie told me in the morn she might be going aust. or brit. to study.. of course, me, the whole day hu si luan xiang girl, went to think that she WILL be going.. thats why was feeling so sad.. haha~ LMAO.. so during physics, with the ms goon invigilating us, i didnt dare to take my art out to do. so i started brooding on the vie problem. started feeling really sad.. so i wrote a poem.. hahaha~

Dark cloud loomed
Clouding the bright horizon
Tears it shed,
Are nothing compared to mine.
God, why are you doing this to me?
The searing pain
The raging fire
It hurts.
The suddeness of the thunder clawed my heart
Bleed, bleeding, bleed
I kneel; i prostrate
Take my heart
Take my soul
Dont let her go
Please dont let her leave.

if my poem not so nice, please forgive. really. i dont want pple say i act kiang put my poems here. its just for my friends to see. pple who dont like it, close n get lost. thanks. and can that fake jw stop using my nick? if your name so coincidentally is the same as my initial, use your real name can? thanks arh.

Rei bboyed at 20:47

Thursday, October 09, 2003

just had to blog again. m'sia is cancelled. yucks. thanks to my dad. he insisted on a 5-star hotel and its all fully-booked. stupid or what? cannot stay in 3 or 4 star hotel one meh? so much money to spent gimme la..

then hor. read her blog. nnl. say till i like some akhmah. like im some nappen chinku. o_0 cheap. whatever. anyways, bloody gang and hahagang rocks! hahaha~ actually, i wanna thank them for being so nice to me.. and other g3 pple. For the first half of the year, i felt quite ostracized, even though huiyi, jiawen and angelia talked to me. Thank you for incld. me in your gangs.. Thank you for making me feel happy in class :) im praying every night that all of y'all will go sec 4. hanjin, jia you. i dont think anyone wld wanna see you outta school.. so work hard. erm. hmm. ok. no subjects to work hard liao. hahaha~ left only physics..

동 화, 화 이 팅!! Continue working hard towards 우 리 의 끔! 와 하 하!!! I can write 한 국!!! finally know what to press to write liao.. 와 하하!!! its the alt key!! 경희, 체이와 아이스, 우 린 짱!!!!! 아름다 운!! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ... *starts rapping* 태 한 민국! 태 한 만 국! 태 한 민 국!

Rei bboyed at 22:00

wth.. nnl. some friggin bo liao pple used my name to say xuemin on MY tagboard? hello? MY tagboard? if i ever find out.. haha~ that is if i ever do.. hahahahhaha~

anyways, maths suck la. paper one was so friggin difficult, i could only do 2 qns. 2 happy qns. yucks. for the first time in my entire life, paper two was SOO MUCH EASIER. die liao la. then tmr got art.. ok. physics n art. but who cares about physics? and only one page of my art is done. can somebody just kill me? im so dead. on my sketches now.. im seeing a million dots.. *wheels ard blindly*

anyways, my mom decided to send me to nanyang school for my piano lesson. so rich arh she. that place so friggin ex lor. asked her why she say she feels that the standard there is much much better than outside schools like cristofori.. so.. i dunno? i think i'll just die there if the standard is very good.. im not say like very good.. maybe a lil' above average but not that good.. i see pple i feel so jealous.. i play i hear monotonous sounds coming out. i think my ears are just screwed when i play the piano.

happily, we might not be gg to m'sia after all. the stupid guy who was supposed to organise the whole trip for us told us theres no hotel? hello? no hotel where we live? on the streets? erbx. some kind of organiser. dunno la.. hope to go though. i need serious shopping. i think everyone is sick of me wearing the same clothes over and over again. yea.

Rei bboyed at 17:30

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

ss was so damn hard.. i couldnt finish source-based last qns.. yucks. shit la.. out of 50, i only got 43 marks to minus. yucks. sure fail liao.. die la.

then after ss paper, i went to mini forum there play piano.. so coincidentally donghwa was in the avt and they came down! haha~ went to canteen then class to play with them.. then vie n kyunghee were laughing along the corridor on the way back to class saying the school looked like a mental hospital.. hahha~ coz someone so smart, went to fold paper boats and put them in a puddle of water.. ahhahahahha~ damn funny n cute la! hahaha~ then play till damn shuang till like 1.30 then they went back to hall to check papers.. was left alone in the class.. then waited till 3 plus and started hu si luan xianging again.. didnt cry but almost did. started doing art to take my mind off stuff. went out of the class to get steal white glue and saw donghwa again. hahaha~ im like just plain lucky.. haha~ yj, vie n kyunghee went toilet and i followed behind them.. too bad vie came out first. so jy n kyunghee were still inside.. so i hid behind the wall waiting for someone to come out.. and i managed to scare yj!! yay! hahahhaa~ then at the canteen, i was chacha-ing to the gidariri song with kyunghee.. i really think its a nice song.. will post it up when i learn how. hahaha~

went to orchard popular.. we were gg mad there.. haha~ we were like reminiscing our childhood days.. looking at our last time colour pencils, pencil boxes, bags erasers.. blabla. haha~ then kyunghee started looking at this kuku malu brand.. hahahha!! the name is hilarious!! then we started making a whole lotta jokes about kuku malu.. laugh till i wanna die.. hahahhahaha~

went off to cine to get ID bracelet.. in the end, only vie got. yj said the bracelet didnt look nice one me.. haix.. dunno what to say. think i'll find a chioer ID bracelet.. probably buy a bigger one or dunno what la.. then shop ard Level 2.. and i saw this ear accessory... was so chio!!!! hahaha~ coz i have no earholes.. then that ear accessory dont need earholes can wear one! so cool right? i actually wanted to get it the first time i saw it, but i didnt had the money then. so i had to buy now right? yea.. i did la.. but i think yj n vie not very happy? i dunno.. i just sorta sense it.. i know they thinked im a very big spender and i dont deny that la.. but.. well.. i dunno.. haix. made me feel quite sad till i reached far east. my dad picked me up then i fell asleep in the car.. so bloody tired.. exams is like killing my sleep.. im gonna look like hyesung soon.. eyebags eyerings and all.. yucks. then somemore this saturday gg to m'sia to watch motorbike competition.. yucks. im like totally not having enuf sleep for this whole week! but still, can't complain.. i'll be watching bike competition! woohoo!! then maybe i can go KL that new megamall and play the rollercoaster? hahahahaha~ can't wait!

im like totally dying in art though.. any kind souls who can draw willing to help me in my art? *looks hopefully* oh. which reminds me. yj said my face very qian bian. coz got too many expressions.. is that what she meant? i also dunno.. anyways, i also think so too la huh. i apply face mask i can die. my face cannot move at all. you can see my face one arh.. when i first apply on the mask arh, my eyes were still bright, big n happy. nearing the end arh, my eyes is like si (shit. i forgot how to say dead in hanyu pinyin.) yu yan.. hahahhaha~ damn funny.. i see also cannot laugh.. so sad.. if not my whole face crack up.. blehx.

Rei bboyed at 19:56

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

could not be bothered to study my lit.. read through abit before deiciding that i will do passage-based qns.. then went to sleep.. next morning at assembly, i brought my bonesetter's daughter down to the parade square.. i was praying to God while sitting there to give me the page to study.. so i was flipping through the book and after finishing praying, i stopped at the page. it was the page where Luling gave Ruth the necklace which Ruth gave Luling last time.. read read read. then realised that God where got so kind let pple like me got the page. so i just read la.. then read on sorta thing.. did my lit first paper about the view from the bridge and the poem.. yucks. gg to fail liao lor.. then lit paper 2 about the bonesetter's daughter.. yucks! i realised that i HAD to do an essay AND a passage-based.. yucks. i was like thinking die liao. look the essay qn like damn hard like that. then looked at the passage-based - and stared for 5 minutes. it was the page where Luling gave Ruth the necklace which Ruth gave Luling last time. God helped me. I spent the 5 minutes oh-my-godding to myself lor.. yucks! and i didnt even look at my notes on that page!!! yucks!!! how stupid can i get?!??!?!?!?!??!?! still, it proves that God does miracles.. just whether you wanna believe it or not. yea. sad case la me! haix!! fail liao la!!

then during the break, i was like playing with tinwai lor.. all the while, she was holding this chem ws wanting to study but in the end chose to play with me.. then left 5 minutes for us to study so we faster read through.. then in the end come up alot of qns from the chem ws!!! kaox!! tinwai n me just wanted to kill ourselves la! hahaha~ actually, maybe only tinwai. hahahha~ i dont really care much for chem.. but i promised i will work hard for chem!! so.. after my finals, i will start working hard.. hahahha~

then went to the Monet wanting to touch up my blog.. stupid patrick came and shoo me away.. nnl. then ran one round trying to avoid him before gg back.. haha~ then managed to put up my tagboard b4 he came in again.. yucks. shoo me again.. i started mumbling some excuse then faster run away.. haha~

ran back to class.. started talking to angelia n han jin.. then angelia went to read ss and han jin wanted me to teach her my dance.. so i taught.. after finish teaching, we talked about chn dance then i asked her which p-skool she came from. she said she was from YISHUN primary!!! omg!!! tong xiang!!! hahhahaha~ i was like utterly amazed! hahahhaha~ yay! then talked talked talked.. then talked for damn long b4 suddenly we started sweeping the floor coz it was too dirty.. managed to make the class cleaner before i went out to fill my water bottle n saw donghwa.. hahaha~ then went orchard with them la huh.. stayed at mac with tong, kyunghee n vie till 6 laughing till got abs.. hahahaha~

went home and happily, 74 upstairs got very few pple. then 3 pple sitting at the back was listening to their discman too.. so i took out my discman and happily sang shinhwa. hahhaa~ then no one heard me so i was happily singing n singing. got off the bus and was still singing. totally forgotten that the people around me were not listening to discman. i guess i was singing quite loudly, then it struck me that i was off the bus. turned around to see anybody heard me.. and saw this woman with her eyes so BIG looking at me as if i got something cocked up in my brain. yucks. felt so malu and ran away.

Rei bboyed at 22:10

Monday, October 06, 2003

ok pple. my blog is not yet done so please dont ask me to put this up, put tt up. will do as soon as possible. thanks arh..

btw, some inspirational poem for the pple mugging:

The sun is still shining
Why are you crying
Come breathe in the sweet air
The dove of Noah's Ark
Have brought in an olive
So why are you giving up hope

FIGHTING!

Rei bboyed at 21:35

kyunghee, thanks arh! hahaha~ my that orange very ajumma meh.. hahhahaha~ thanks anyway!

today history.. wah.. quite easy.. i was so scared that the topics i didnt learn will come out.. luckily it did.. *phew* then my blog is utterly screwed up.. my links are missing! (im not blaming you, kyunghee.) will update them after my finals.. my mom is clamping down on my com activities.. so cannot be online for too long.. therefore no time to do my links.. haix.. art havent finish yet.. sucks la! what is the world coming to?!?!??!

erm.. about her, i dunno what to do already. I think i'll just leave it like this.. see what happens then think of something la huh.. im quite a passive person when it comes to such conflicts.. esp. with pple im not say very close to like donghwa.. yea. hahaha~

gonna go study my lit then do art.. haix. got so many things.. die liao la.

Rei bboyed at 18:22

Saturday, October 04, 2003

i think this orange nicer... the previous one is too amah... ajummah~ ^^ this is cuter.
-lotsa sarang, kyung hee the "areumdawoon"[think the blind yoja lol] tae young

Rei bboyed at 20:16

Talked to vie from 10.40 till 12 plus.. hahaha~ could have talked longer if not for my dad who found out i was talking on the phone.. hahaha~ oops. i really think jiawen is damn funny. apparently, vie agrees with me. hahhahaha~ then studied till 1 plus b4 sleeping.

woke up like 6.30 then went to school in taxi. bleh. i know its damn waste money but who cares la huh.. who ask my dad lazy again.. ok.. i sound like a spoilt brat.

then studied abit of the letter format.. forgot whether informal one is write your own address or people's address.. so i chose formal one instead. looks easier to write anyway. I seriously think my chn suck though... what kind of compo did i write lor.. i mean, i know can pass one la.. but it just horrifies me that my chn vocab is actually quite limited.. i think i need to read more chn books liao..

then chn paper was so-so la.. can say quite easy.. since for the first time, i managed to study so much.. hahahahah~ i really will be damn sad if i dont get a1 lor. and summo must be high one. so that it can pull up my marks.

after chn paper, i went to do art la huh. susan tan was in a super bad mood. she was ranting n screaming at the sec 4s.. but she was nice enough to extend the deadline for batik.. heng arh! if not i can just fail art lor! i hope to get like b3 n above for my art one lor.. best is a1 la.. hahahahhaha~

I rly dnt tnhk i shld atucly say abt u. rly. tnhks bild^, nt tt i wna say. fr me, i feel tt u shld.. heck. forget. wo ziang hua yu la. ji ran ni neng kan de dong, ziu zhe yang kan lor. ni bu hen ta men. wo zhi dao. ni hao xiang lian yi ge ren dou bu hen? ni dong bu dong wo he da men shuo huo, ru guo you ni zai, wo huei jue de hen gang ga. di yi, ta men bu xi huan ni. di er, ni huei bei diu zai yi pang. ji shi wo dui ni you shen me bu man, wo ye bu huei zhe me zhuo de. na shi hou ni you gen wo jie shi guo, yi dian dian er yi la, ke shi, wo jue de ni de gu shi nan yi xiang xin. ne me duo shuan shi kao jing ni de peng you dou gao shu wo tong yang de gu shi, ni que gao shu wo ling yi jian shi. ni shuo wo gai xiang xin shui ne? wo mei chan yu, mei he ni men yi qi zhuo shi ying wei wo bu xiang zhuo. yuen ying zhi shi zhe yang. qing ni bu yao xiang dao ne me yuen qu. shuo zhen de, ni shuo wan na duan shen me wo mei you hou, wo ziu ting bu dong ni zai shuo shen me le. qing ni shuo qing chu yi dian. xie xie. ni shuo wo pan duan ni de tai guo fen, bu shi ma? wo zhen de hen huai yi ni zhuo de yi qie.. ke neng shi wo duo xin, huo ze wo tai xiang xin zhou wei de ren, ke shi bu ke neng mei you yi ge ren you hao huo kua ni ba? ne me duo ren, shen zi da duo shu de ren, dou gao shu wo tong yang jian shi, zhi you ni, ni gao shu wo bu tong shi. jiu lian ni xing jiao de peng you dou zai xiang wo tou shu. you yi jian ni zhuo de shi ling wo fei chang shen qi. jian zhi shi fen nu. ni ke bu ke yi bie zhe yang ruan lai le ma? ji ran ni de wen ti da duo shu shi zi ji zao lai de, he bu ba ta men wang diao ne? bie gei zi ji ne me duo wen ti. ren jia hen you ke neng huei xi huan ni de, jie shou ni de. ni xu yao de shi shi jian er yi. jia you.

Rei bboyed at 18:16

Friday, October 03, 2003

tmr is chn finals. oh no. havent study finish yet.. shit la. haix. still got like 5 more chapters to go.

i think everything is back to normal.. yay! my dad is still sending my bro n me to school! yay! hahahahahahahaha~ then today also nothing much.. so many pple pon school today.. nnl.. class like quite empty like that.

yucks. zhen de zhen de hen bu xi huan ta. hen fan la. shou bu liao. yi zhi chan ze wo. bu shi shuo wo bu guan xin ta la, ke shi ta tai nian ren le. wo ye xiang gen wo ban de peng you shuo hua, ke shi, you ta zai wo de shen pang, hen nan ni dong be dong? wei shen mo la. wei shen mo ta ne me tao ren yan. nan dao ta bu neng nong zhi zi ke ai yi dian ma? ta yao zhe yang guo re zhi ma? wo dao xian zai dou hai mei kan dao you na xie ren xi huan ta de. mei ge ren dou zai liang ge yue hou dui ta you shuo fan gan. ying wei ta tai tao ren yan le. bleh.

shall not translate the top part. hahahaha~ anyways, after school. i went to s3 to wait for vie to finish her detention. yj, kyunghee n me sat there happily talking, with vie popping in time to time. ahhahahhaha~ so jealous of her. her detention was like so easy, unlike mine. yucks. this kind. then talked lotsa stuff.. got so ji dong i keep getting spasms. hahhahahaha~ quite funny la.. haha~

anyways, I FOUND MY POEM! YAY!!!!! WEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

I stared at the unforgiving sky above
The rain beating on my wrinkled face
My evil deeds revisiting upon me
My dark past fighting to be heard
A howl of regret, of shame
Lives I've ruined
Souls I've destroyed
Carrying my sins on my hunched back
Weeping at myself

Sleepless nights went by
Attacked by nightmares
Screams of my victims
Voices of my victims
They are haunting me
Crying out to me
Those anguish, those pain
They stabbed me
Bleeding
Mianhae.

I've had enough.

ok.. this person is supposed to jump off the cliff after he said that so.. ya.. hahahaha~ kyunghee! vie! gd idea for mv! hahahaha~ call u ltr, vie!

Rei bboyed at 21:58

Thursday, October 02, 2003

haha~ today my dad sent my bro n me to sch once again.. haha~ very happy.. hahahahaha~ hopefully tmr he still will?

anyways, actually today also nth much happen.. just like normal day like that.. only that i realise my art got like 6 more boards to do, 5 pages of new art work, n batik. how dead can i get lor? like very.. haix. then chn this sat.. am studying now.. i need to get an a1. actually, i must get an a1. hahhaha~ i will be damn angry at myself if i dont get one.. yucks. this kind of pple.. hahaha~

since got nothing to write, i shall post my poem which i written like a week ago. it was raining and i was looking outside my class window. I saw dragonflies flying around.. then i was thinking, dragonflies so small, those raindrops must seem very big to them. then wouldnt it hurt when the raindrops hit their body? then it came out in a poem.. hahahhahaha~

oops. seem to have lost it. thats quite sad. only claryce read it. i rmb putting in my art file.. hmm.. ARGH!!! THAT'S REALLY SAD LA!!! WHERE THE HECK IS IT?!?!??!?!?!?

Rei bboyed at 20:23

Wednesday, October 01, 2003

was damn angry at my parents this morn. my mo quitted her job so she's not working anymore. my dad happily laid there in bed, refusing to take me to school. it was like 6.50? kaox. in the end, i took a friggin taxi who's driver was probably some ex-gangster.. he had this huge tatoo on his arm and there was this driver who accidentally cut into his lane n nearly got hit. he horned at the driver like dunno how many thousand times and the driver honked back. the taxi driver actually raised his fist and shook at the other driver, shouting some expletives. normally i would just raise an eyebrow but i didnt even care. he could stop the car and start bashing up the other driver and i would just sit there, staring out of my window. was jusrt so angry n hurt by my parents la huh.

anyways, managed to celebrate yj n lynne's bday. gave yj the shinhwa 2nd concert vcd.. i burned one.. hahhaaha~ n hyesung stickers.. then i gave lynne minwoo n dongwan stickers.. haha~ quite happy la.. i thought they were celebrating at botanics w/o me.. thats why i wrote yesterday's entry.. oops. hahahhahaA~

came back and am still feeling angry with them.. heck. who cares about them. they're just so into themselves.

Rei bboyed at 19:57